The Fallen Griffin

MABEFs'

2012-01-29T17:42:00.002+08:00

Hello!!
First of all, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO MABEFs'!! Here is a little letter for you guys..

Its been a year that we have called ourselves MABEFs'. I truely appreciate you guys being there for me most of the time. Honestly speaking, I look for you guys more than my friends whenever i need the company. This close relationship we have really means alot to me and i do hope that we can keep it for a very long time. Though there are only 9 of us at first i can say that we were the best and we are the best. I could never have known that we could kept calling oursleves MABEF for very long. I suggest we have an outing every month or every 2 months,2nd saturday of the month?? The amazing thing is that we still remained us when Jundah came in and that i find it greatful that we welcomed here with open arms, i dont think anyone could do that. With so little manpower, people may say that it wasnt possible to do alot of things but maybe it was. So, i guess i shall end here for your letter and that I really miss you guys and US. I really do. Do wait for my Present because its coming SOOON i guess..

Okay so that is it. Its a sunday and before i begin,

Had campcraft training yesterday and i can say it was either fun or disappointing.

I know that there were a shortage of manpower and that we had to work within the timing. Other than that we took photos and all.

Went to sheryl's place to have steamboat haha. I MISS THAT GIRL!! ahh..was fun talking to them and cathing up.

Then went home for a short rest and went out again to meet Wonder Woman for a movie.. We went to watch Journey 2. Which was totally awesome and i suggest all to watch it.So HAHA!!reached home around 1130 and i changed and went to sleep..Was super tired after not sleeping for like 2 days.

okay..i guess that all the news i can give..Didnt do much today..just a regular SUNDAY!!bbyes.

2012-01-21T22:35:00.002+08:00

Its a Saturday Everyone!! HAHA!!
Usually, As a Family, We would go out and stuff but we didnt. So i am sitting at home and wasting my time and eating and all that. Its really boring coz you got no one to talk to.
BLABLABLABLA..
I ate alot today oh and yea!!

Mak is at our place and i guess i am gonna waste my time watching Jersey Shore! Bbyes..

2012-01-20T21:55:00.003+08:00

Today we are gonna talk about people who has a big shit problem with almost everything..
i really dont understand why some people are like this..Why must you make a small matter into a big one.What Wrong did i do you can just talk or say it..You dont have to shout or scold me right..and seriously.. I find that some people are just too much. Dont go all mood swing on me.Damn like i give a shit for it??

I didnt go out with MC today because he had to settle some things going on at home and its okay as i was really kinda tired. Just so you know i didnt get up of bed till 1 plus and so what. Its kinda getting much more exciting as the day goes by so yea..HAHA.. CNY is celebrated for like 15 days and its kinda cool. I really got nothing much to say now.

I have completed watching jersey shore season 1.

thats all bbyes..

Chen Xiang

2012-01-20T00:14:00.002+08:00

Hello!! So i am really bored hence the post..HAHA..
okay..so there is this thing going on about me and chenxiang within the CC teams..HAHA..
and its kinda funny coz i started it..
Well to be honest or to clear everyone's concept, me and chenxiang are not dating.
I am merely just calling him my boyfriend coz i like it.
I totally respect anyone who would like to speak up and say that they do not like it or wants this to stop and i will.
Lets just take it as a joke okay..
to create some fun into the seriousness..
The CCC is coming soon and today i can see that there has been a great brilliant improvement. and it kinda makes me happy to see that everyone is working together..
So yea..

Gonna go out with MC today..and i seriously do not know what to expect or know what he has plan or watever..HAHA..well..lets just see :) for now i m craving for all the npcc photos as mr peh wants it.
Remind me to bring camera for the next few trainings.. bbyes..

Hectic Schedule

2012-01-19T01:25:00.002+08:00

Hello Everyone!!
It has been 4 days straight including the event later..
That i will be having NPCC. The 1st 2 days was in HTA and the next 2 days were in School.
Both were for CCC. Its kinda tiring and all but i can still handle it yea..HAHA.. And i am going out with MC on friday which is kinda great. We get to talk and all but i dont really know what is his plan for that day so yea..
Well i believe that yuying npcc can perform at their best if they want to or have the passion to keep on going.. There will be training tomorrow and i am gonna go firm with them..MAYBE??
So i guess my day off will be Sat-tues. Oh and since chines new year is coming soon..I am so excited!! HAHA..dont ask why..LoL..
and i've read my past post and i can say that my english kinda improved and it looks nicer.So it is kinda a sense of achievement. HAHAH!! thats all bbyes..

2012-01-16T23:34:00.006+08:00

Hey!! Okay..So i dont know if i told you about the CCA Day/Open House thing..but watever..It was fun and stuff..

blablablablabla..

Went to HTA to prepare the Logs for the CCC..Kind fun..Keep pulling stuff and working together..HAHA..long Breaks tht were = to lunch breaks..HAHA...LOL..just clocking my hours

So yea..nothing much..just that i am really tired..LOl..HAHA..

dont know wether or not i should go out with MC this thurs or next week aft CNY..i dono la..HAHA...okay.. bbyes..

My Nenek!

2012-01-13T22:58:00.004+08:00

Hello!! So i am gonna talk about my grandmother. She(see the photo above) is my granmother from my mum side..so she is my mother's mum.Get it..Yup..I can say that i am really thankful to have her with me almost all the time..I know that she will alaways be there for me no matter what. She lives in Tampines and comes to my place to lookd after us, well that was what it used to be. Now she comes to cook for us since my mum is too lazy to.HAHA.. She is great and really understands us well..Well most of the time la.She does understand abit of english since i am teaching her.LOL..

Why am i saying all these?? Nope she didnt pass away..

I am just saying this because i enjoy her company and i am really sorry for not being there whenever i am supose to..

I overhead some small kid scolding this old lady some stuff..How did i know it was an old lady?? He was saying something about his mother doing it differently. And i cant seem to know why he wanted her to apologise.Come on, She is his elder.RESPECT PLEASE. They dont diserve all this shit for all the've done right.

Other then that i want to say i kinda had fun and got what i always wanted!!

Some one to feedback to me how i fair as a CI.

Yes i can agree that i have been acting like an NCO or watever..But still it is a learning point and i must change..i wont try..I will just do.
It is awesome to hear someone feedback to me.because if i heard it from some other group of people i feel more stupid.So thank You :)

i shall end off here coz i want to watch One Tree Hill..HAHA..

BBYES..

2012-01-09T23:27:00.002+08:00

Hey..so got my results today and my birthday present ans other stuff from friends and i got to see my friends..
i didnt do well..but hey i m going to poly so what right..
got 24 for my L1R4..
so yea..watever..
i got nothing else to say la..
HAHA..OKAY.BYE!!

2012-01-03T22:44:00.002+08:00

okay..so finally i have something to post about..
its the new year and nothing much happen..
went to new year with family and met seri and mikail there to see the countdown and fireworks..lol..next day was like a regular watever day la..
blablablablabla..
blablablablabla..
blablablablabla..

seriously..whats with men in their late 40s anyway..seriously.. i got scolded for not welcoming my dad home..wtf and i find tht it was totally not my fault seriously..i was like listening to musis on my headphones and these headphones are the one whereby when you wear it you cnt hear anything else other then the music or sound you hear tht are coming out of it..and i was reading the online meeting convo..lol..totally not my fault..i would have seen him if i was outside..but i was inside..and no one informed me tht he reached home..
he is so damn cranky all the time since i monday..what the hell did we do sia..not possible he having menopause right..i dono..i only know it happens to women only..so i m still pissed..and i have an event tmr..and i m gonna say bye..so byes..

2011-12-26T22:57:00.007+08:00

Hello!!

okay..so today i went to science center to see the dinosaurs!!

haha..lol..took loads of photos and saw alot of things it was a short day..and nothing much happen..

above are the photos..not really la..HAHAHA..okay.so

aft the sci center trip went home..zzz.so boring hmm..

okay.the day before,

went to some kind of wedding or dono what la..yea..it was damn boring so played with my camera..HAHA..yup..really got nth much to say..haha..

chatting with..mikail,afi and maybe jonas..lol..its really damn boring..

meeting afi tmr and i really haven finish his gift..haha..lol..i feel soo bad..shall do it tonight then..haha..and...

i guess thts all..bored weekend..bored monday..ooo..and yea..

maybe not going for training tomorrow going to sufairah and ira house to ask them out!! haha..lol..like pathetic sia..HAHA..coz i dont have their numbers and we are to go out on friday!! okay.

i guess thts all..bbyes..

2011-12-22T23:22:00.002+08:00

hey!!
okay so i m currently webcamming with Afi, Mikail,Ervika and Jonas.. like really..but problem..
i cnt be seen or heard..so thts the problem..HAHAH..okay..so i m damn bored..really..and this webcamming chat thing is damn funny..HAHA..okay lol..and i think that only AFI is the only active one lol..all of us are like looking at each other's screen..its so pathetic tht i m just typing here..lying on my bed..RAHHH!! okay..so brief things that i did today!!

woke up damn early..went to the basketball trg..haha..sad thing coach didnt come today and good thing i came..mdm leong was like needed help..lol..i refreed a match..and it was awesome..lol..i know all ref are like hated or watever..i m still talking to them and its like 1130..haha..lol..playing basketball with yeetat tmr..haha..and mikail on manday..HAHA..lol..like i soo busy sey..lol..

tues got basketball trg and i m trying to get ERASAJ to go out..lol..its so damn hard to get ppl to go out these days..hahah..

ITS STILL FUNNY TO BE IN THIS CONVO EVEN THOUGH I CNNT BE SEEN..haha..lol..okay..shall continue..lol..bbyes..

2011-12-22T16:01:00.002+08:00

Hello!!
Okay..so i m dead bored and i got nothing else to do..hence the post..LOL..okay..so i have decided..to talk about a few things..blablabla..okay..now i got nothing to say..LOL..OKAY BYE!!

2011-12-19T14:15:00.002+08:00

Hello!!!
Okay so there are a number of things to cover this time.
1st..
I have completed my CIBTC!! and the investiture on the 17 was awesome!! So awesome!! okay..
2nd..
My Birthday was a few days ago and i can now safely list down the things i want-ed..
haha..
1st. The DSLR Camera i wanted for Years.. (get alrdy)
2nd. A New Spalding/ Converse Basketball
3rd. A full Set of Yellow clothing..
4th. A dumbo soft toy. (get alrdy)
5h. Great Results for O levels.
6th. a DVD player.
7th. my VCR to be fixed.

yup i guess thts all..
i think the most exciting thing is.... i got blue heels from alpha..omg..like seriously..are you serious and i cnt say tht i m not happy that i got a dslr..like omg..YAY! snapsnap..
okay..lol..i m soo bored now..zzzz...okay la..byebye..

2011-12-11T00:12:00.003+08:00

i am feeling so down right now..all of a sudden..like seriously..i think someone just figured me out..

RYAN HIDAYAT..remember this "i still love you"..

i dono why i m still holding on to that..like..it makes me so pathetic..
i feel like texting him right now..but a girl should always wait for the guy to text..zzz..how long m i gonna wait..i feel so stupid..and i felt this before with mingchuan..but we are friends right now..zzz..
watever..

had a great day with some of the alpha today..did alot of things..and now i m tired..going to sleep now..bbyes..

2011-12-09T06:56:00.003+08:00

RC 2 is over and i find thts its a brilliant thing..because i learnt alot more..and honestly..i still dont know how to berhenti..LOL..other than that i can..got sent to remedial..lol..coz i fail..my CA2..like come on..seriously???
had lessons at ubin ytd..and i was kinda disappointed..we had to pitch the flagstaff and the tent..flagstaff was okay..but tent i feel like i suck at it..my ten guy loop the slip knot keep coming off and i kinda feel like..useless..didnt do much..damn..

planned an outing for mabef and 9 ppl outing can cause so much..i feel so angry at ppl..yes..i love them but really..come on..ppl have been pissing me off that day during thr final breifing..like come on..they ask stupid qns..much more stupid than what i ask like seriously..there are such people in this world??COMMON SENSE LA..
to add on to that..some ppl cannot make it today..like really..i dont work..i dont ask money from parents..i save..no offence but $51 is money..who told you to spend so much..and i dont mind people working..but i told you to beforehand that we are going out today yet you tell me you got work..and i want all 9 of us to meet..like whats the point if its not 9..we are not the BEST 9 FOR NOTHING..
i decided that i m gonna put the word watever..okay..if you want to work or really got no money and dont want to go then watever la..because i find thati dont have to care if you dont come..and yea..if you want to say we can meet some other time..why dont YOU PLAN..and see how easy it is to plan one..
packing my bags for later..bbyes..

CIBTC RC1

2011-12-03T00:17:00.002+08:00

HEllO!!

So book out today..out of CIBTC..HAHAH.. so far all i can say is that the course is funny, learnt alot of things..haha..did quite a number of mistakes..met new friends..nothing much to say..
BIRD SHIT FELL ON ME WHILE I WAS DOING THE CA1!!
like seriously..
went out with the squadmates..dinner..HAHA..great rite..aft dinner..went to the roof top to play true or dare..and confessions..so kinda confess quite a number of things..meet daddy around 9pm and went for dinner..didnt really eat much with squad..meet daddy and ate pratsa..

talking to suhana now..such a crazy person..WE TALK ABOUT ALOT OF THINGS..like the course and people..HAHAHAHAH... PLEASE REMEMBER THAT CEILING IS NOT WALL..ANDAND we talk for super long alrdy..so nice..SING ME LULLABY..hahah..
still talking..haha..2 batt and still talking..HAHA..

okay moving on..add on..came back and received a messy room in return..and wiwi is talking to suhana!! SOO AWKWARD..
ahh..i got nothing else to say actually and i feel so wide awake!! hahah..bbyes..

PROM!! BEFORE,BEFORE, DURING!!

2011-11-27T16:56:00.003+08:00

Hello!! I can finally say that PROM is OVER!! how great is that..though i kinda miss it..HAHA..LOL..

So lets talk about Prom preparation..

okay..see the pictures above?? those are taken on wednesday..and i finally reveal them..

told you about that already right..moving forward to thursday then..

went back to school to help out..didnt tell anyone i was going for CIBTC..HAHAH..so i kinda lied to them and told them that Nic and Zoey are going..HAHA..KINDA FUNNNY..and they used my name to call me instead of adding the ma'am behind..i was kinda calm about it..lol..really..some MABEFs came ardn 12..during lunch arif texted me..and asked me to go to prom as a friend..haha..i wanted to but i dont know if i should..so i kinda said no..then we went back to school and we waited for samson and kaimin until 4 plus 5..haha..i kinda screamed when i saw kenjia and daniel..HAHA..I MISS THEM..then zoey and yazhen came..i scream too.HAHA..we piteched the swtich side window together and my hands hurt..and were rough..we ate dinner aftwards..haha..

FRIDAY!!

got abit scared the night before because i had to use the white CI tee.. soo weird..haha..lucky i woke up early..because..i had a slight fever..and i took my towel and put some ice and wet it and put it on my forehead..waited for mummy to wake up and she gave me 2 panadol that didnt taste nice..can you believe it..it used to taste nice..now it doesnt..

well..went to school..and samson told the sec 3s and wenxue about me going to CIBTC..and i kinda laugh a little looking at their..' I TRICKED YOU' faces..open house was boring but prom night was awesome..

finnally saw yasi..but she came to the timing that i wasnt able scream..but i m soo glad i could see her..HAHAH..

OPEN HOUSE WAS SUPER BORING..

PROM WAS AWESOME..took quite a no of photos..

THANKS TO ALONG FOR MAKING ME LOOK GOOD..

when i rched school..saw arif..and i just got out of the car..HAHA..

kinda had fun..but i miss it..i dont really know how to explain..and yea..daddy took me home..ahah..i guess that all i got to say rite..

bbbyes..

2011-11-23T23:11:00.010+08:00

omg.. PROM is 2 days away and i alrdy feel kinda worked up..WHY?? i dont even know..omg..

I have a plan.. i m gonna come at 6.15 or so or 6 or smth like tht..register..and try to hide myself away from everyone..well..mostly everyone..i wont show you what i will look like eventhough i have the photo but..i will try to describe to you what i will look like..seems weird huh..but thats if you want to know..HAHA..

Lets go from TOP to BOTTOM..
My Hair will be tied up..YES..IT WILL BE T.I.E.D U.P..

I will be wearing a star necklace..

I will be wearing the white dress and something to cover up my shoulders..i forgot what its called..

And the shoes..Hell..no wait..spell wrong on purpose..Heels..and they are like HIGHER than i use to wear for raya..like omg seriously..

i woke up late today and shower 1 hour aft i woke up..lied down on my bed feeling reallyreally tired and anxious..dont ask me why..maybe i was thinking about EVERYONE GONNA FIND OUT THT I M GONNA BE A FREAKING CI tmr?? or later..haha..its coming 1AM now.. watched onetreehill and i went to rivervale plaza today to get my skirt done..lucky me..i reached there before i closes..bought some stuff and headed home..

along make me try on my prom dress and thats how i know what i will more or less look on friday..and yea..got help from mummy..ordered macs afterwords..and kinda got a few more things to say..

had my LAST NGAJI CLASS FOR THE YEAR TODAY..and i guess above are the photos..

kinda had fun..but i guess i will be missing all those kids..you know..

so,

Thank You all of you guys..
You guys have taught me something..

No Matter How Old You Are, There Is Still Time For Religion.

It will always be there for you no matter what..even if i start late..learning arab is the best thing i would ever know..

Meeting you guys is always the best thing..No matter how bad my day was..The Class will always have away of making me smile..

I have never thrown a bad mood in any of the classes and i am thankful for that..

You guys are so cute..And to my ustazah..

Thank You for being so patient with me all the time..

Eventhough not so good words come out from my mouth some times and when i m being a not good example to the kids..i really enjoy being an assistent to you..

So Thank You..

HAHA..Thats is..and here's a sneak peak!!

bbyes!!

2011-11-22T19:38:00.002+08:00

Today i had that CI briefing and i was kinda scary..i was like so scared i could feel it in my stomach in the bus ride..damn..kinda learnt a few things and got loads of things..dont wanna talk about it much..yea..made new friends and got to talk to old ones..so i guess it was pretty normal..

i reached home around 2..unpacked my bag and put the stuff in a safe place..then i went straight to sleep..well not really..receive ALOT of text about this friday and thursday thing..they kinda got confuse..so i had to settle it..explained it all on the group..wondering who is coming..i find that this is a really good thing for the MABEF as we get to meet since we've been apart for a VERYVERY LONG TIME..kinda miss everyone you know and come on..if you think i m missing mingchuan the most then i think you're wrong..

we have to get over things something and him..i think i have..i dont think its time for me to get in to crushes or relationships at the current moment..haha..well..when it comes it come right..
i alrdy have 4 ex's..dont wanna pile up somemore..

i dont know what to do now..kinda bored so i've been watching onetreehill..haha..kinda exciting..but i know i m not able to finish it all up..so what the hell right..bbyes..

2011-11-21T22:34:00.002+08:00

This CI this is kinda making me freak out..yea..i know its fun and all..but hey..i decided to do this and yes i m soo going on..HAHA..well..enough of that..
woke up pretty late today..wiwi didnt go for basketball training and heck cares..i ate crakers and ice cream and went for the CI meeting thing..learnt alot of behind the scenes thing of CIs..haha..well i think i m gonna help them get back the pace..yea..cant let alot of things off..but i know its kinda hardwork..we talked alot and yea..it kinda feels different..haha..did loads of things..watch onetreehill and i m still watching it now..

i really..dono how people are gonna find out tht i m gonna be a CI..i dont want people to know tht fast..at least not after i go for the course..and i m gonna have to go HTA tmr..kinda shit up..haha..well..its great..AND I M SOO MAKING KENJI AND DANIEL GO FOR THIS COURSE..HAHAH..bbyes..

2011-11-21T00:37:00.004+08:00

PROM Anyone??

My family and i went to Kuala Lumpur(KL) for the weekend to look for me and my sis's prom dress..it was kinda awkward..but here's how it went..

We took off by car on sat night..sent amirul to mak's place and gogogo..it was a tiring journey..and my dad keep trying not to doze off..we stopped at the rest places..the ones that have the eateries..or something like that..the ones that have people and not those toilets places..so spooky..every hour starting from 2 daddy will stop and sleep..it was kinda amazing as all of us we SLEEPING in the CAR!! i didnt really sleep because i cant..sad huh..

we reached the KLIA..Kuala Lumpur International Airport..took the train to somewhere and went to visit the shop that my parents and younger siblings went when they were there..HAHA..honestly..I kinda feel like its a bridal shop..but hey..who cares right..we were like dead tired..I tried a few dresses..of course i didnt pick them..i didnt know how so my mum and my sis suggested to me..HAHA..mummy told me to keep my options open so i did and i ended up not knowing which dress i wanted..So far for that..yea..Yes..i did get it..it kinda feel like a bridesmaid dress..and i think i would feel awkward in it but I M NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO WILL YEA..took some video..and it will be featured here only..Enjoy!!

We went back home just recently..and i m still veryvery tired..nothing much there really so i guess i m ready for prom?? NO??

i dont know..i think i still got somethings missing..HAHA..well bbyes..

JUST TESTING!!

2011-11-19T01:10:00.002+08:00

i am wondering if this works..HAHAH..

enjoy!!

2011-11-19T00:58:00.002+08:00

Heys!! Okay..so here i am..sitting at home..had a game of basketball with ridley today and it was kinda tiring..after those few weeks of not talking to each other..for i dont know what reason..we finally manage to catch up..though i didnt tell him everything..my time spent with him include lunch..but sadly..i didnt eat...coz i dont feel like..HAHA..

got home and went straight to bed and guess what??
i went to bed at 1..lol..1PM..lol..yea..6 hours straight..told mak to tell along to wake me up and she did..LOVE HER!! but..i didnt wake up..it shows how tired i am today..

went to compass to buy food and look for prom dress and seriously..

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO WEAR..

REALLY..

okay..i ended up going home from compass without any food BECAUSE....

i couldnt decide what to buy

i didnt know what to buy

and i dont want to buy anything..

LOL...

at 1 am..and i m getting bored..ooo..yea..i took out ALL of my clothes to re-fold them..but ended up chucking them back because i turn on the room light and my dad went to the toilet..so yea..just guess..HAHAHA..it was past 1 ytd when i did it..HAHA..okay..i think i better go..bbyes..

2011-11-17T20:41:00.003+08:00

HELLO!!

so i think today is gonna be wee bit disgusting..like seriously..i went to visit the doctor's today..and its soo NOT FUN!! i really hate them..and i kinda find them not tht smart..haha..
first off..the doc didnt even know that my leg is NOT in agood condition and yea..it craked today..hurts alot..then..everything went fine..didnt get myself a jab..i had to take a urine test..EEWWW..urine test like seriously..wat the hell..CIBTC wants to know about our urine..its kinda disgusting..i was laughing my way..hahaha..and guess what the doc said..
my urine has bacteria..LOL..how disgusting can you get and tell a 16 year old this..yea..i know have not been drinking h20 lately..but still..i drink water..right..no to make myself clear..i drink coke..yea..unhealthy..i cant complain..yaya..

planned to watch one tree hill..for the holidays..though i dont think i can finish the whole 8 seasons before cibtc..but who cares..right..bbyes..

resuscitate

2011-11-16T00:05:00.002+08:00

Hey..

Did i spell it right?? WONDERS...

ahh..its been long..yayaya..that wat i say all the time..so lets change things a little yea..

dont ask me what i have done this again..NO IDEA..
okay actually its really..
I M SOO BORED!!

have i told you that my Exams are really over..been enterntaining myself on youtube..ellen..facebook..and catching up with all the old series..blabla..like one tree hill..etcetc..dont wanna talk much about it..
i guess..the next post is gonna be better..loads of news..really loads..and things about my life..well..more or less..HAHA..well..
bbyes..

2011-09-29T22:03:00.002+08:00

Heys!! so i m gonna tell you a short story on my other blog and this time i will really type it out..so i guess me being here is kinda seldom..etcetc..coz i really dono what else to say and my life seems boring lalalala..okay..hmm..i guess i m gonna type it out..so i guess here's a summary of it..

its basically about 4 girls and guess who it is about..haha

4 girls meet on year one..each and every one of them so very different..bt one thing make them friends.. 193.. the aggregate number tht they got for their Primary School Leaving Examination(PSLE). they became great friend.. best friends. they became the odd ones.. they only best group in the class.. in the end they split..
the end..tada..well i m kinda gonna write a book so i guess.. i short story wont hurt rite..well i might do one bt i dont think it will be now..hahahs..well i m off..bbyes..

2011-09-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

hey!! okay, so let me say tht i m in the midst of writing a story called 193..well its actually about the odd ones..yea..sucks rite..just this one story only..and yea..thts it..i guess its gonna be pretty long so BOOM!! haha..well i guess..its gonna ,be hard zzz..i actutally got nth much to say..so good bye..

2011-09-16T23:15:00.001+08:00

hey..so i m updating..yea..good rite..haha..well..i guess..i really got nth to day anymore..i dont know why..well..i've got an event tmr..so i hope its gonna be exctiting..yea!! off to bed i guess.. :)

2011-09-14T21:59:00.001+08:00

okay..i published my DRAFTS TOO..HAHAHAHA..okay bbyes..

2011-09-14T21:58:00.001+08:00

Heys...i didnt study today..coz i went looking for my squadmates npcc photos for a vid i m gonna make for them..aft mass camp..HAHA...POP is this FRIDAY..i hope daddy will come and tht i cn go for it..coz it clashed with the el workshop..grrr..KILL ME PLEASE.. err..it should be fun..coz i dont expect alot of things..the things i wrote for the individual squad is like a total failure..i think i m just gonna talk to them one by one..HAHA..LOL..err..i think i m gonna miss it alot but maybe not..and yea..i really dont like mr chia..waa..he told me to erase my ans whn i almost got it..LOL..grr..ASS..haha..erm..okay..haha..bbyes..AWAIT THE VIDEO..haha..bbyes..

2011-09-14T21:58:00.000+08:00

Hey guys..i know its been long..ahh..the reason behind is..

i just cant seem to find the time or even if i do..i think i m soo damn lazy to update..bt watever..the time is now and hey..thanks for reading anyways..haha

well..i guess its been a mth and yea prelims gonna be OVA!! HARI RAYA Is here and we are gonna celeb it soon..LOL..hmm i really got nth much to say and i m gonna slp now..bbyes..

2011-09-14T21:57:00.001+08:00

Hey!!

okay so here i m..writing here on my blog jsut to fill time..LOL..apoligises for not writing for very long..i just dono..whenver i wanna write something..i just cnt find the rite words..get it..lol..okay..fine..hmm..i m gonna update my other blog so..good the bye..bt wait..i hope tht i could try to kick my laze off and write about my day..

a few words i wanna say and i guess its been on my mind and i need to say it..

I DONT TRUST ANYONE..
EVERYONE LIES..IT DEPENDS WETHER YOU WANNA TRUST THE PERSON OR NOT..
THERE IS A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN BEING ALONE AND BEING LONELY. BEING ALONE MEANS YOU'VE GOT SOMEONE BUT THAT SOMEONE DONT SPEND TIME WITH YOU. BEING LONELY MEANS YOU'VE GOT NO ONE..I M PRETTY MUCH ALONE..
THERE IS A DIFFERNCE BETWEEN BEING ALONE AND FEELING ALONE.FEELING ALONE MEANS YOU'VE GOT SOMEONE BUT YOU'RE IGNORING THEM..I M PREETY MUCH BEING ALONE..GET IT..

okay..bye..

2011-08-30T02:41:00.000+08:00

Hey guys..i know its been long..ahh..the reason behind is..

i just cant seem to find the time or even if i do..i think i m soo damn lazy to update..bt watever..the time is now and hey..thanks for reading anyways..haha

well..i guess its been a mth and yea prelims gonna be OVA!! HARI RAYA Is here and we are gonna celeb it soon..LOL..hmm i really got nth much to say and i m gonna slp now..bbyes..

2011-08-03T05:29:00.002+08:00

HEY!! its been so long..hahaha..yea i know..fasting month is alrdy here!! and today is the 3rd day alrdy..haiz..hahaha..its good..gotta keep going..well today post is abt friends..i know its so early in the morning and i ought to study but..WHAT THE HELL!! hahaha..lol..okay..well..ytd..2nd august..

i found out tht there is still more to friends..

in the morning i receive a POP gift for yasi and yazhen and was kinda surprized..i only tot of letters and tot of gifts so i guess we MABEF mean alot to them rite..well i guess i m gonna do the same..bt i wont tell you what the gift will be.HAHAHAHA...was really touched to receive such an item..haven take photo yet..zzzz..bt nvm..i shall take it soon and mine is the NICEST..YAY!! okay thts my thinking..haha..

MABEFs has been here for me for very long..i want to cry sia..bt cnnt..i think back and the letters mean so much..i feeel VERYVERYVERY touched..gosh kill me rite..haha..well..its not tht simple..moving on...

had chem night class tmr..and you know i REALLYREALLY SUCK AT CHEM..1st qn i ask sarah..and SHE COULD ANSWER MY QN..she taught me chem and pretty well i understood her..so fo every qn i ask i was so surprized tht there are still such awesome friends in this world and tht i have missed them for not looking and treasuring them properly..before i left for home, weiqi told me to study and thts whr i know tht i have fallen into the right grp of friends..
even though they may all be different..they may have given up on me or watever at some point..i cn see tht they are there to give support no matter who you are except if your the one who they despise..hahas..

so now and here i would like to say THANK YOU to all my friends that have believe that i m still able to do it and overcome my lazyness thing..lalala..i really appreciate tht..THANK YOU!!

well i think i shd get going and shower..bbyes..

2011-07-27T23:12:00.003+08:00

heys..this is gonna be like so short coz i m gonna slp soon..zzz..today actually nth much happen la..haha..well..didnt have study camp/night class bt had meeting and i m like damn stress..coz the timetable need to re-do..LOL..keep changing time and date..2D 1N..how cn not stress..zzz..good thing is everyone stil works together..haha..yea!!well..zzz..aft meeting i rushed to ngaji..zzz..i tot i late sia..end up everyone comes arnd 740 plus and i rched at 750..LOL..okay..now i m in love with bruno mars talking to the moon..haha..and i plan to re do the vid..hahaha..LOL..OKay..bbyes..

2011-07-26T20:33:00.002+08:00

heys..okay so i m officially bored..LOL..got meeting tmr and yea..today is an okay day..well to the fact tht smth scary happen..overall..it was good..assmbly chged to 1st period tmr and hell..sit for very long..grrr..so what..waa..dont feel like saying anything coz not in a great mood..amirul la..had to spoil..grrr..asss..bbyes..

2011-07-25T22:02:00.002+08:00

Heys..its abt time for me to post about POP..ahh..alot of people will say LIKE FINALLY..POP ALRDY.. bt let me just say..you wait so long for this event tht whn it happens..you feel so empty, you just cry coz it flew away from you just like tht..POOF and its gone..it was a hard feeling for me..bt well you have to move on with life rite..yea..we shed tears..so now i really dono what else to talk about..bt HEY!! there's still MASS CAMP!! wait till mass camp is over till we really shed tears..yea..my present for all of them are not done yet..well..the video for mabef is..bt hey..wat the hell rite..

here is the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9m8Cyqvalvk

Hope you guys enjoyed it..give comments thanks..

well lets talk about today shall we..

hmm..i woke up late and daddy suggested not to go to sch at all..bt i said..because of em remedial i had to go..end up mr chia wasnt in a good mood and he canceled it..LOL..

nvm tht..i got a farewell present from nic..and i went super hyper..okay first i almost cried coz i felt sad..bt then chg of emotion i went super happy..coz i dont see a reason why i shd be sad rite..we still got mass camp!! hahaha..well..i guess i better go off now..bbyes..

2011-07-21T22:01:00.002+08:00

heys..its POP tmr!!! HOW EXCITING..i think tmr i might be happy or sad or anything..i'll be emotional..HAHAHAH..LOL..i know it will be great..bt i just feel..i cnt explain my feeling..type this oso hard..waaa..hmm..

racial harmony day today was...........
i ended up wearing the baju..and i made Sze Min wear oso..HAHAHAH..

i shd be doing other stuff now..haha..BBYES..

2011-07-20T23:04:00.002+08:00

hey!! tomorrow is RACIAL HARMONY DAY!! see above..arghh..i dono if i wanna wear tht or a yellow one..the yellow one is my mum's..so i m gonna bring it to school tmr and decide if i m gonna wear..with sch bag leh..waa..hmm WHAT IS RACIAL HARMONY??

well i learnt it in SS just now..hmm..it started off about some muslim celebrating Nabi Muhammed S.A.W birthday or smth like tht..as they were walking from kallang to the padang, a CHINESE police officer ask them to move inside instead of walking near the road..due to misinterpretation, RIOT occured..and yea..so you know..haha..then thr was abt this maria lady..erm..i rmb it last time..bt now..i oni so called know abit oni la..blablabla..err..i didnt study today also..bt i had fun during SS..really..i think i understand better if MRS ANGELINE TAN teach..she gets my attention all the time..haha..welli guess i better be sleeping..need to iron and look for my heels tmr..HAHAHAHA..bbyes..:)

2011-07-19T22:09:00.001+08:00

2011-07-18T22:24:00.003+08:00

hey..
so i m soo bored..i dono WHAT to study..so i shall do maths later..HAHA..hmm..today sch was weird..didnt slp in any of the class..andand..go home early!! yay!! i wasted my time at home using the computer..bt WHATTHEHELL rite..haha..well..here are some photos..bbyes..

okay..wait..aft i typed tht^^^...i renamed some of my photos and got bored..and sleepy..so i think i'll give you guys photo next time..oyea..and tmr is MT O LEVEL LISTENING COMPRE..YAY!! bbyes..seriously bbyes..

Been So Long!!

2011-07-17T17:01:00.002+08:00

hey..miss me?? HAHAHA..okay..i guess now ppl do read my page..LOL..ya..so watever..gosh kill me now..haha..

ITS BEEN SO LONG!! okay..why has it been so long..rite..hmm..lets say i was too lazy to sign in..my com got confiscated for like VERYVERYveryvery long..so yea..sorry abt tht...zzz..hmm..its a sunday now..and yea..i guess i really have started studying..its not easy to pick up and YES!! the crave for the ciggar is offf...well..speech day is OVER!! my feelings were okay on tht day..POP is coming and i m damn excited coz i plan it..bt i guess its gonna go to waste..coz they keep changing it..LOL..i will make sure my plan works like crazy..

PARAMORE IS COMING TO SG..and i wan to book the tix now!! i dont care..LOL..okay..bbyes..

2011-06-08T23:22:00.003+08:00

heys..life is hard and i know it..i have been shit for a very long time..sleeping in class..doing things tht i m not supposed to..doing things at the wrong time..i know my mistakes..and i plan to correct them..people say you cnnt do it alone..well..for someone in a situation they dont know tht..bt i do..

i have disappoint many..didnt know it was hard to do this post..wow.....

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all i cn do is..........dots...

i have disappoint sheryl..i just realise that..i tot we have lost it..i blame us for so..bt i didnt know it was ME..ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME.... She didnt gave up on me as i tot she did..she did it as a friend..without me knowing..she told our friends to encourage me..the sad face of her whn i talk to her..it just...just make me feel like shit..i dont understand it a first..be the other day whn they told me tht sheryl asked them to wake me up whn i slp or take care or me or smth..i felt..touched..touched tht i didnt know how a great friend she was..how fortunate i was to have her..now..my goal is to make her proud..she is the greatest friend ever..what i have now must be treasured..i must treasure her..

Sheryl..I m sorry for all i have done okay..i m really sorry..for you and especially for myself, i know tht is what you want, you have done things for me and oni for me..i have taken you for granted..I m really sorry..i hope tht if you read this you will forgive me..i shall, from this min onwards do my best in my studies..no more giving shit lies or excuses..no more taking things like shit..I apologise again..Sheryl..I LOVE YOU..

no..i m not gay..thx..

i thought life was now..we got to live it..bt then i didnt see my future..i oni saw what i want for the future..it was not based on reality..i was made up..it was what i wanted..that was what i saw and nothing else..i feel sooo...bad..so dumb..

i have been thinking of it..and i feel the want to smoke again..yea..you would not believe it bt its true..no one knows abt this..whn??primary school..i guess..was young and my grand uncle thought me how to make it..homemade..haha..thts bullshit..bt yea..the minty feeling in you mouth..i wont do it of course..so i have been avoiding it for quite some time..its not addictive..just like tht..solution to my no wants to smoke cause..is strong mint mentos..yea..the feeling is almost there bt not there yet..kill me for doing so..i m going to bed..bbyes..

LINK MY BLOG!!

2011-06-02T20:43:00.004+08:00

Heys!!

I HAVE GOT A BIG ANNOUNCEMENT TO MAKE!!

but...

let me save it for later..HAHAHA..

alright..BLOG FOR TODAY..

hmm..had study camp..was awesome la..stated doing my model..i plan to finish by next week..haha..thn i cn move on to my actual product and my presentation board..kinda slow..yea..thts y i have to rush things you know..lol.

meeting today..edited..and had some problems with blablabla..the proposal cnnt hyper link oni.lol..the was the blablab problem..okay..nextnextnext!!

HAHA..I M SOOO EXCITED!!

I HAVE created a blog thats shows oni and my only writing..well..its a blog for me to write stuff..not like this la..lik really..full eng kind..hope you guys cn go read wat i write about la..haha..this kinda shows that i really wanna be a writer..its a start i guess..haha..the link will be on MY BLOG!! haha..yay!!

BBYES..

A Short thingy by ME!!

2011-06-01T22:37:00.003+08:00

heys!!

ITS WEDNESDAY!!

today is about MT O, Shooting comp and watever i rmb and want to say la..huh..

okay..MT O LEVELS 1ST..

had it on mon..was the most awesomest paper!!HAHAHAH..yea!! the paper was okay..erm..i dono wat to say for tht..called along to check my paper..she said..i did okay..AWESOME!!

SHOOTING COMP...WAS OKAY LA..i did worst thn last yr..zzzzz..worst time of my life..and

wat i want to say..
hope you gys read this..haha..just something i thought about la..:)

WHAT I WANT TO BE WHEN I GROW UP

My name is Ros Shazwani NurQahirah Binte Mohamed Aminudin.
I m currently 15. I was born on the 18th of December 1995. Not 16 yet though.
My Favourite Colour is Yellow and Black maybe any colour that looks good on black. EXCEPT PINK, i really dislike pink. I love TIGERS, Tweety Bird, Dogs(i can not touch them tough but just looking at them is fine:)) and DUMBO..or maybe animals that i can not keep at home la. I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH BUGS, ESPECIALLY CROCROACHES, they really creep me out. Not to the point yet. I LOVE MABEFs, ODD ONES AND ERASAJ, they are the best group of people i really want to be with. I dont really reckon i got BEST FRIENDS NEXT TO ME NOW. I LOVE ICE CREAM, vanilla flavour for that and chocolates not the ice cream flavour the food itself.Now to the point.

When i was in Nursery, Kindergarten and my First to years in Primary school, I wanted to be a teacher when i grow up. That was what most childrean wanted to be right when they grow up??

When i was in Primary 3, I wanted to be a Runner, A track and Field,Relay or Hurdles runner. That was the year i first found out i got great speed and was in the track and field team.

When i was in Primary 4, I still wanted to be a Runner but i wanted more.I wanted to drive fast cars. To manly huh. I guessed so. That was when i started to watch movies about people racing in cars.

When i was in Primary 5, I wanted to be a Basketball Player. That was when my team won 2nd place in the zone and moved on to the top 8 in sg. We didnt get in to the top 4, sadly.

When i was in Primary 6, I Still wanted to be a Basketball Player or a Runner/Olympian. That was when i had both and wanted both.Commited to both. I had my PSLE that year. All i wanted to go was NGEE ANN SEC SCHOOL. It had a good name. 1st choice for me. Did not get in.I got YUYING INSTEAD.

When i was in Secondary 1, i wanted to be an Actress or at least a Director. That was when i found out, I was noisy and can make peolple smile. I met Great peole who made me become who i m today. Thank You.

When i was in Secondary 2, Still wanted to be an Actreess,Director and i wanted to get a lisence to fly a plane. I did not know why. But i thought that if i could fly a plane i could go anywhere i wanted.

When i was in Secondary 3.I wanted to be someone in NPCC. I wanted to have a post as long as i was not the Chairman.Every one wanted me to be. All i know, when people put hope or predict that i would have achieve a certain result or something, they would be disappointed. I could not achieve it. I wanted to be a director, Emcee or TV Host. I realised i talk alot. That would help me. I also found out that due to my personality or attitude, some people do not like me.

Now I m in Secondary 4, I want to be a Writer and a DJ Or a Host/Emcee when i grow up. I want to connect to the people. I want to Tell stories to people,Create a sense of drame in places or to.I LOVE ENGLISH. I also wanted the SPF Badge and the SI rank.I did not get it. Sadly. Yet the perspective changes, at least i got NOMINATED. That is just as good as getting it.99% there. I m having my GCE O' Levels this year. And Currently My results suck. I came last is class and bottom 10 in for the whole Sec 4 Express. Disappointing much??

You have Read.
You have Known.

I know What i want to become when i grow up and i m working on it.
I Just do not know where i want to go. How to get there even. This is the part where i call you for help.

Once again, You have read,You have known.

Help me find my way. Lead Me. Teach Me.

Thank You.
Ros Shazwani NurQahirah

Well..That was un...fun..yea..i wrote that from scratch..ON THE SPOT..HAHA..just give me a topic..crap can come out of my mouth..i think i m gonna call people to read and comment on tht..haha..bbyes..

2011-05-27T23:04:00.002+08:00

Heys..See the picture above?? Yea..Thts MABEF..Who are MABEF?

Let me intro..

MABEF- Marverllous And Best Exciting Friends
MABEF- Singular
MABEFs- Pural
Discovered: 1st June 2011(1st Day of NCO Camp)
Formed: 28 March 2011(Day we Form the Name and Used It)
MABEF is also unknown as B9(Best 9)
MABEF is an Association(HAHA)

Wat i wanna say is that..Friends Always make your day..no matter how close or far,boy or girl, they will always be there..bt not all..

i think MABEF are friends that i would like to be with. They made my day..and almost everyday..i dono about normal friends..lets get to that later yea....MABEF has been there for me almost all the time..you may say..its OVER COMMITMENT..i dont care..coz i know whr i stand..I M A LONER..tht i cn say is true..

We have so many good people in the world..M I ONE??

I Think my relationship with Sheryl is like GONE!! POOF!! it will hurt when sheryl see this..bt i think its true..ISSIT MY FAULT?? What have i done wrong..that is still something i m trying to figure out..i write almost everything here..coz i think its safe..so watever i write..do not spread..do not talk behind my back..just act as if yo didnt even read it..LOL.

since the start of last year..everything has been bad for me..thats wat i think..bt if you think not thn..its your problem..i think i have lost everything..friends,results,trust.i cnt make proper decisions,i m addicted to the com..i dont think i m able to share stuff with people..its not that i dont trust them,i envy them.

Issit because i m malay that i shd hang out with the budak melayu?? wat is wrg with being the odd one always??i have chinese friends.i know how to mix arnd with them..i m with the good people..bt y m i still like this??

what i think i need is someone to talk to..if only my shadow could think and talk to me..now you are practically thinking about parents.they have been thr for you since you were born..bt still..they dont understand you..you dont understand them..make then understand you..talk to them..yea..i m like giving shit whn my life is like shit..

i have bee doing alot of things behind alot of people's back and now i think is the time to reveal it..well..some of it..

people think i dont study coz they dont see it..bt i do,WHEN??
whn everyone in the hse has gone to slp..i wake up and study.whn i hear movement or what..i'll rush back to bed..

I M A LIAR..i lie to keep myself safe..SELFISH?? YEA..i m a very selfish person..VERY..i think of myself before others..my mindset is like a person who dont have common sense..is that what you wanna read?? well..it is your DECISION TO TRUST ME..if you dont the i wont convince you..

why do i think of the negative things..and tell people abt being positive..hypocrite much?? YEA..coz i always think of plan B..i think outside the box..ISNT THT WAT TEACHERS TELL US TO DO??THINK OUT OF THE BOX??

DECISIONS ARE MADE BY YOU..you make who you want to be not others..do not blame others..if you want to blame others..find the evidence..for eg..the teacher says tht the paper is hard..you fail it..who is to blame..the paper?? or yourself for studying so hard and end up failing thinking you didnt study hard enough?? or blame your brain or yourself for not being naturally smart??

Life has its up and down..

WHAT I WANT TO BE WHN I GROW UP??

A WANT TO BE A WRITER??

look..people expect alot from you and you end up disapointing them??whn you say somthing for people to infere..for eg(whn my daughter do smth she will put her best effort into it..thn you talk abt me in spending time in NPCC coz i like it..then you say..SHE CN POLISH HER BOOTS 2-3AM IN THE MORNING)
what will you infere from tht sentence??
i m hardworking if i do something i like??
or
I SPEND TOO MUCH TIME IN NPCC..(over commitment)??

what is the problem with me..HELP ME THINK OUT..

MABEF has been ther..especially the girls..i dono whr my real friends are..bt one think i cn say is that whn you have friends..FIND SOMETHING IN COMMON THT YOU CAN ALWAYS TALK ABT..for me and Sheryl..i think WE HAVE RUN OUT OF THINGS TO TALK ABT..

good bye..

2011-05-21T19:34:00.002+08:00

Heys..i m distracted by the computer..supossed to be doing my malay hw..bt yea..haha..well had a good day today..marverlous..i think..woke up early..went to sch..wen shoppingfor rations..they buy aloads of maggie of which i have not tried yet..well..thr's still time for a 1st yea..

i always wonder since last yr..my relationship with sheryl has not been very good..its like whn she talks to me..her tone of voice is like annoyed..or smth..i understand what she is going through..bt whn she talks to other ppl its like different..like normal..i dono..i feel tht we are like coming to an end??we have been good friends since sec 1..bt i m doubting it now..i rather not bt i dono what is going on my head..i m asking for help..help me solve this..what have i done wrg??hve i been boring??bad??lazy??or just not interesting or funny anymore??HELP..HELP ME..

the family went to BATAM today..HOME ALONE!! oyea..andi collect my phone alrdy..haha..awesome!!mid year is over..prelims and MT O LEVEL..here i come..i m gonna work hard for it!! DISTRACTIONS..i have got to kick them out..did i tell you i m home alone now..zz..i really shd go back to m y malay work..well..off i got thn..bbyes..

been having dreams abt accidents lately..cars,murders jumping..and cars..afraid to cross the road..what shd i do?? almost got into an accident twice..it sucks..

2011-05-18T13:07:00.002+08:00

HEY!!

been shit ass long..was home alone like 30 seconds ago..lol..i ordered mac..and its coming at 2.10!! WHY SOO LATE?? ZZZ..you knw mac are like the things you eat wn ur hungry..bt i dont understand y they come soo late..and i think thts bullshit..haha..lol..jkjk..today is marking day..soo..its a holiday for meee!! yay!! hmm..i m doing smth of which wil risk alot of things..bt i dont care..i m coming 16 rite..still hesitating to do it..wanted to be one bt dono if i still wan to tbe 1..ahh..who cares rite..listening to music now..ordered mac lala..haha..gonna cost alot..zzz...i m sooo dead..okay nvm..HUNGRY!! EXAMS have ended..bt alot of people have been saying tht its finally over..bt i think not..we still got Os..wat life cn be..ytd was vesak day...great day haha..well..ytd was ytd..tdy is tdy..well..i really got nth to do..bbyes..

2011-05-08T21:52:00.002+08:00

heys..been long..so wat cn i say..lalala..ahhh..

TODAY IS MOTHER'S DAY!!

hahaha..i m soo awesome..lol..good thing i m not a mother..hahaha..well..i really got nothing much to say..just..wont be able to use the com for quite a long time i think..exam are here..so i m just using it for music pruposes..haha..okok..well..bbyes..:)

2011-04-29T21:56:00.003+08:00

Heys..long time huh..well sry abt tht..get the latest..hmm..so far aft tues issit??ah..i finish my Half Blood Prince and Deathly Hallows and yea!! the Trailer came out alrdy..i dono if i cn put the trailer here..let me try..ah..cnnt..well..nvm abt tht yea..i m soo excited for Deathly Hallows and..and..

TODAY IS THE ROYAL WEDDING!! YEA!!

PRINCE WILLIAM IS OFFICIALLY MARRIED TO CATHERINE..HOW AWESOME IS THT HUH!

alrightalright..i really got not much to say i dono wat else to say..wait..

today took the SS and EL paper..SS was kinda simple..bt i dont expect alot of marks..coz i bullshitted all the way..EL was AWESOME..just not to get my hope high..usually easy papers tht has got alot of 1m qn will be marks strictly or the qn may play tricks on us..so yup i guess thts all bbyes..

2011-04-26T22:41:00.002+08:00

heys!! its tuesday..and i m rotting..well..i m studying of course..chemistry kilss..well..i wanna talk abt ytd actually..had our paper 1..i dono kinda my 1st time being sooo calm for a paper..i hope i cn do so for the rest..i doubt i did it well..we took our paper at the hall..aha.i think its like to prepare us for the o levels bt i think the n level students shd do it too rite..prepare them too..they are also taking a major exam..so y so biased??forget abt tht..i have moved on to the deathly hallows..haha..i have to read it carefully coz previously whn i read it..i lost loads of points and the movie is coming out soon..so i reckon i ought to knw..well..tdy then..

it feels kinda weird to go home early on a tuesday..usually i go home arnd 6 or 7..due to meetings..bt yea..kept me alive didnt it..i knw i have go to get used to it..ppl are talking abt being a CI..signalling me to be 1..bt i dono shd i or shd i not?? well..i got to take my head off things..i m not gonna ans any1 qn abt me being a CI..O levels come 1st yea.haha..well i think thts tht..i shall carry on reading!!bbyes..

2011-04-23T20:39:00.002+08:00

heys..i m now sitting at home in front of the computer..doing NOTHING..well..i expect myself to study bt i dono..zzz..loads of assessment books on my table..zzz..its killing me..well..i'll just have to do it thn..hmm..mummy and daddy went out..LOOKING FOR OUR NEW REFRIDGERATOR..its a wow..FINNALLY GONNA HAVE A WORKING REFRIDGERATOR..WHOO HOO..WE SHALL HAVE ICE WATER EVERYDAY!! YEA..been boring..wasted my time..shd have been studying bt i dono..well..i m gonna so some house chores soon..bbyes..

2011-04-22T23:39:00.003+08:00

heys!!

HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY..

well..its good friday and every1 gets an offday except for those tht works at shopping centres..well..sheryl told me tht on good friday..her religion..goes to the church to pray..thn they celebrate easter on sunday..they either go to church to pray or at home pray thn eat eggs..HOW COOL IS THT..wow..its really awesome if you learn abt other people's religion..kinda knw how to respect them more..so okay..its gonna be 12 soon i gues..haha..well..other stuff then..hmm..

talked to mingchuan today..lol..dont ask why..haha..just felt like telling him tht some of the stuff tht i was supposed to give him are still here..i dono..wanted to clear my room..ended up went out whole day..didnt tell him though..just talked..was a short chat..haha..

oyea..today went out to little india..went to tekka centre..along wanted to find some indian clothing..to wear for kakak syahidah wedding..lol..i m soo not wearing..its not tht i m racist or anything..just tht i dont feel good wearing them at this age..haha..i wear things tht make me feel good..we walked frm mustafa cenre all the way to tekka centre..aft tht went to geylang..find malay clothings..kinda pathetic to me..haha..bt who cares rite..had dinner at changi..i dont think i'll be seeing the jetty agn..unless i go thr for fun with mabef or become CI or send off my juniors to their ATC/STC..wow..haha..well..i dono wat i m gonna do now..bt i think i got nothing else to say..not going back sch to take my things..zzz..oyea..tmr having amaths lessons with along..DIFFERENCTIATION!! AWESOME!! haha..well..bbyes..

2011-04-21T23:07:00.002+08:00

heys..ITS THE LAST DAY OF SCH..well..the holidays are for 3 days..bt still its not the time to relax..i gotta finish everything or study everything before the MYE..having Paper 1s on monday..shd be simple..just got to keep reading and get the lang..well..most teachers say i've got the idea bt i dont have the lang..well..proceed on..kinda happy today..

MINGCHUAN REJECTED SHIMIN!!

HOW HAPPY CAN I BE..well..actually..HE DIDNT REJECT HER..SHE JUST SAID SHE WANTED TO BE FRIENDS..THEN HE SAID OKAY..wow..really..i dono..i feel like hugging him right now..haha...me and him are..just..good friends i guess..i dono..I WANT TO TELL HIM HOW I FEEL BUT..I M AFRAID THAT BOTH OF US ARE NOT READY..so whats with that..shd i just tell him how i feel..i dono..GUESS ITS NOT THE RIGHT TIME..gosh..i dono sometimes this feelings come..haha..he is infact the 1st person i ever like really liked..well..enough abt us thn..

what happen today..well..it was dull..oyea..PROF SNAPE coming back..zzz..I M SOO DEAD..have not been COMPLETING HIS WORK..well..atleast i did some..so i m gonna complete everything by these 3 days..aft sch had extra trg b4 the MYEs..trg was ATROCIOUS..soo little people come..WHAT THE HELL..

PEOPLE..WE ARE THE GOH!! YOU WANT TO WEAR 1ST UNIFORM..MAKE SURE YOU ARE WORTH THAT UNIFORM..i alrdy have 6 SEC 2 CADETS WILLING TO LEARN RIFFLE..NEONS..WHR IS YOUR STREGTH..I UNDERSTAND THOSE THAT GOT REMEDIAL..THOSE THAT DONT HAVE?? THE FINAL TRAINING B4 MYE!! we wont bother you with any NPCC stuff unless you haven pay for any of the shirts money la..AND MABEF..WE SHD STOP PLAYING ALRDY..COME FOR TRG NOT TO SHOW OFF..COME TO TEACH TO TRAIN!! WE SHALL GIVE OUR ALL FOR THIS PARADE AND THE UPCOMING MASS CAMP AND OUR POP!! ALL THE BEST MY FRIENDS!!

oyea..KENJI DAD called me just now..HE WENT HOME LATE!!zzz..made me worried sia..pls inform your parents if you going home late..zzz..well..i shd be going off bbyes..

2011-04-20T22:16:00.002+08:00

heys..WEDNESDAY!! awesome!!hmm..nothing much happen..everything went on for usual..oyea..the PHYSICS TEST!! it was awesome!! i totally fell asleep on the 4th qn..luckyly mrs chew kept waking me up..well the good thing is i managed to complete it except for 1..i totally didnt knw how to do it until aft the test..HAHA..well..seen my new FONTS?? DID YOU NOTICED IT?? HMM..GUESS NOT..BT WAT THE HELL YEA!!

i have totally no hope for CHEMISTRY..really no point..zzz..hmm..wat else...ah..

DADDY IS FINALLY HOME!! YEA!!

had mac aft ngaji..ahh..they are making me fat sooon..UNHEALTY!! HAHA..well tmr got extra trg..oni us..shd be fun..SEC 1 AND 3s GOING FOR THEIR UNIFORM THINGY..haha..oyea..other school got their SI Results alrdy..soo good..i think we shd have got it alrdy..i dono they got it on mon..zzz..I WANNA KILL MR PEH..SLAP HIM!!

well..bbyes..

2011-04-19T19:26:00.002+08:00

heys..early POSTING!! well..who cares what time i post..haha..had 2.4 rerun today..and let me tell you..IT TOTALLY SUCK!!..sch was awesome!! EMATHS TEST WAS HORRIBLE!! i didnt knw who to do the last qn..and seriously i think i FAILED BOTH PAPERS..SCREW!!

refering back to 2.4..i didnt finish it..i felt very miserable..like seriously..i dono..my heart was like piercing painful aft 1100m..like shit man..such a disgrace..i m soo gonna retake..I M NOT GONNA HAVE A C GRADE FOR MY 2.4KM RUN!!!if you are gonna aks me to go visit the doctors..NO WAY!!i m soo not informing me parents about this..even if i did..they wouldnt care..HOW PATHETIC..okay..tht went well..hmm..other facts..

nicholas broke up with his girlfriend..i dono who dumped who..coz i just cnnt be bothered..bt seriously..i mean..let him have a LIFE PEOPLE!!
JUST COZ HE GOT HIMSELF A GIRLFRIEND DOESNT MEAN YOU CN TEASE THEM!! i dont even find it funny..like HE IS HUMAN TOO..HE GOT FEELINGS TOO..SO WHAT IF HE IS AN OVERLY DRAMATIC PERSON?? To me,i think that getting himself a girlfriend is a great achievement..by laughing at what he is doing to his girlfriend..embarass the girl..what if she is the kind of person who cnnt take people talking and laughing infront of her face or behind her back??he is old fashioned..so what??some girls like old fashioned loving guys..she knows that he is doing it on his own account..this affects badly on them..I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE ARE MAKING A MOCKERY OUT OF HIM!!
yea i knw she doesnt care..bt has she even tought of him..EVEN ME..WHN I MAKE PRANKS OR JOKE ON PEOPLE..ITS NOT AS IF THE WHOLE SCHOOL IS GONNA KNW OR LAUGH ABT IT..amoung friends are okay..bt to affect the big group of poeple who are gonna make fun out of it is totally barbaric!!

been reading alot..well..HARRY POTTER THAT IS..i cnnt wait for the FINAL MOVIE TO COME OUT..haha..

this thurs got a planned trg..awesome..just us sec2-4s..sec 1 will be doing their uni so it shd be okay rite..haha..hmm..anything else..i guess not..oyea..SI results not out yet..bt i think it is..coz area 9 alrdy got SIs..so i dono.i m gonna pester Mr Peh..HAHAHA!!bbyes..

2011-04-18T22:28:00.002+08:00

heys..so watssup??got loads of new things to say!! well..1stly, i have decided!!

I WANT TO BE A WRITER!! AUTHOR..THT KIND!!

awesome huh..well..lets move on..hmm..wat kind of things i found out today..haha..extremely EXCITING!!

NICHOLAS GOT HIMSELF A GIRLFRIEND!! great issnt it??

ahh..i m not supposed to tell anyone..bt hey..i guess the whole school knws..apparently whn nic say dont tell any1..he is the one who tell every1..get what i mean..haha..well..great day..

my great day didnt last long..whn i saw her aft i exited the np room..my mood totally fell..i dono y..like seriously she thinks i m jealous or smth..lol..please la..its his decision..and yours to make..not mine..do improve your english..

well..i told you guys what had happen the other day rite..well..i dono i m still kinda fretting over it..zzz..SUCKS TO BE ME HUH..well..lets carry on..my mood didnt really increased..i didnt do well in any other lessons really..oyea..the AMATHS TEST..let me just say..I DIDNT KNW WHAT THE HELL I WAS DOING HALF THE TIME..i suck at differenciation, trigo and logarithm..OH GOSH..aft sch had mass camp meeting..well..lets be open abt it..dicussed loads..still planning though..my mood got even worse whn they started playing love songs..like seriously..i dono..

WHATEVER IS UP ON MY HEAD..I DONO..I SERIOUSLY WANNA APOLOGISE FOR MY SERIOUSLY HORRIBLE ATTITUDE TODAY..i just hope it improves..

haha..well..i got to go and iron my sch uniform..LEFT MY another set IN SCHOOL..zzz..okay..bbyes..

2011-04-17T14:29:00.002+08:00

heys.. so wat do i do here..seriously i dono wat to do..wat to think..i keep thinking of them..especially him..wow..crazy much huh..alright other stuff then..i knw who wont wanna read abt other ppl..THIS IS ABT ME RITE!! ME!! YAY!..hmm..

well..lets start off with ytd..ytd woke up early..went to sch to play bball..saw some of the sec 3s inside..helping to prepare the cadets for the NPAP..its been 2 yrs since i was in the parade..haha..kinda miss being in a paarade..well..not for long!! trg for the speech day parade!! AWESOME!!haha..i wasted a chance to take photo with our ex AC..Mr Samuel Quek!! i just shook hands with him!! wat the hell..nvm..i HOPE I SEE HIM NEXT TIME!! haha..well..nothing much happen aft tht..currenly fbing and youtubing..and seriously..no point studyign for SS..I dont understand...hahaha..well..gonna try harder..hmm..well..i dont wanna say much just thinking loads..well..i got things tht mummy wants me to do..bbyes.

2011-04-15T23:22:00.002+08:00

Heys..been long yea..well..its FRIDAYYY!!..hmm..well..nothing much happened.. monday..boring..had meeting..lol..tues..went to collect firewood with the sec 3s..tht was fun..wed..forgot wat i did..thurs stayed back..to train yock wu to write reflection..fri..speech day trg..well..yup thts my week..almost whole week NP..lol..well.. i cn only tell you how much happen today..other days werent tht special..HAHA..well..told mingchuan tht shimin like her..hinted him tht she would tell him today..i dono..y i did so..i feel tht he should knw..zzz..went home with him..finally had OUR TALK..clearing our past..felt comfortable telling him alot of stuffs..i dono..bt i didnt tell him tht i really have feelings for him yet..i dont want to spoil the occasion..we talked..i told him my true feelings..and spill everything..wait..almost everything that i wanted to tell him..it was a memorable walk..i dono..its hard to describe..well..its his desicion if he wants to accept her ernt..i cn oni give him my opinion.. well..tmr i need to be a spectator for NPAP!! haha..lol..wearing uniform..most probably sleep..haha..well..nights..bbyes..

2011-04-09T13:19:00.002+08:00

Heys.. okay..so i think this may be my last post(at home)..i dono if i cn post at school or go to a cyber cafe and post..well..y m i saying like as if i m gonna commit suicide??daddy is gonna take my pc and put it back to whr its is supposed to be..in the office!! y..coz of problems..my IRRESPONSIBILTY caused this..means..no more to typing of proposal..no more of reseaching of dnt no more of blog post for my blog or the NPCC BLOG..no more internet or things that got to do with the computer..well..before we continue the story..let me talk abt wat happend for the past week.. mon..nothing much.. okay..i dont feel like talking abt my week.. ytd had oral..and i screwed it up..sec 1 swore in alrdy..so blablabla.. ytd..before i went to sleep daddy asked me how much money i have left..i said.. 50 plus or less..its okay wat..i spent $50 or more to pay or buy stuff..for me..i oso nvr ask him give me back the money..lol..then he throw the $50 at me..then he scold my bro for using the com coz my sis was supposed to use..bt by right she finish using alrdy..lol..thn thts y he is gonna take back the com..zzz..i dono la..i think my case is abt the money..i feel soo irresonsible..and i dont think i n cn trust myself..watever it is..i told my sis to help me keep the $50 and..I M NOT GONNA USE IT AT ALL..I DONT CARE!!..i m not gonna use it.. got to go bbyes..

2011-04-01T22:51:00.002+08:00

Heys.. so today was kinda okay..keep getting angry..well..who cares..rite..GAMES DAY TODAY!! had to scold coz seriously..THEY GOT NO RESPECT..NEED TO SHOUT THEN SCARED..i leant tht i m afraid of some1..i will do wat he/says..with some thinking la..lol..aisssh..plan to post my life story..bt its gonna be damn long..so i shall just talk abt wat happen..well..tdy sec 3 got their posting..damn confusing therefore..i shall not say..whn samson post on the np blog..i shall copy and paste..haha..well..going beach road tmr..haha..BBYES..

2011-03-31T23:15:00.004+08:00

Heys.. so tdy wasnt like a really happy day for me la..ytd had alot of problems collecting ppl infomation..zz..SUCKS..during sch was like okay..and yea..DURING RECESS THE CHOCLATE PPL COME AGN..and i NVR BRGING MUCH $$$$..wat the WASTED!! ahahahah..okay lol.. aft sch meet with the sec 1 and 2s..SCOLDED THEM LA..ask them fall in at 2.35..they fall-in at 240..i was alrdy waiting outside at 235 tgt with yazhen..like........then scold them y late..etc..then ask for contact details soo had to ans meh??REALLY DISAPPOINTING LA..like i took both squad b4..i mean i took the sec 2s b4..and i m now taking the sec 1..like..makes me think tht i m not doing my job well la..like..TOOO LINEAT..HAHA..dono how to spell..its the opp of fierce..so i m gonna be fierce from now la..HATE ME ALL THEY WANT..like I CARE!! samson called me twice just now asking for the contact list..i was like doing alot of things then rush everything..waa..mad cow..haha..well..TOMORROW PLAY GAME!! WHOLE DAY!! YAY!! hahaha.. almost got the chance to drive busu boy's car agn..then mak come..lol..WASTED..i took care of the care ytd..had photos will show it to you soon.with my new HAIR!! HAHA!! YAY!! okay..shall go now..SLEEP..oyea.. HENG SHUXIAN IS SPAMMING MY BLOG!!! BBYES..

2011-03-30T22:48:00.003+08:00

Heys!! I feel like posting photos of my newly cut-ed hair..HAHA..just realise..CUT-ED..if and idiot forget to add the D to CUT-ed..it would be CUT-E..sucks..HAHAHA..well..today English was damn funny..we haven finish our report writing..soo we had to make a pledge.. We the Pupils of Mrs Mahinda, Pledge ourselves to do Her report and corrections by english remedial.. and..pass it up to Ros..:) HAha..okay..i m still having a laugh..the worksheet or notes she gave us was priceless sia..there are stuff like.. Jalan Pantat Busok, iwannaluvyoo lane.. Dear kizmikwik, Pondan Goondusamy.. Mrs Wan Go Thai..HAHA.. obviously we cnt write them down for our essays..bt still we had a great laugh..the rest was normal..hiaz.. waa..i really wann kill the sec 1s..ask them pass their email,hse no and hp no..by tdy via email oso cnnt..tmr i m gonna like screw them upside down..sec 2 OSO..except for some..how m i to tell the cis..they will like think of me as irresponsible and say y i didnt do it earlier..bt really my email couldnt open plus the rest cnnt use the come..i knw its like last min bt still..i told them early in the morning..until now i still haven receive..like WAT THE HELL..they sure die from me tmr..FRIDAY!! GET RANK!! YEA!! bt i dono SI rank get ernt..hmm..hope get leh..i wann IT SOO BADLY..okay i think i shd go slp now..haha..bbyes..pack thgs tmr!!:)

2011-03-29T23:11:00.002+08:00

Heys!! wow..LET ME TELL YOU..WOW..i have just read all the previous post of the yuying npcc blog..reading them made me think or imgaine how they feel during their npcc days..POP coming soon..well..let me tell you my day 1st..hmmm..NOTHING MUCH..HAHA..oo...SHERYL didnt come school today..zzz..just thought abt our blog..geek and nerd..lol..didnt update..guess i shall update soon??haha..MAYBE!! lol..MID YEAR COMING..and my chem stil suck..my geog okay la..my AMATHS..NO HOPE..haha..my emaths okay..VECTORS...SCREW YOU!!..well..my life not stressfull okay..SI results haven come in yet..i think it came in alrdy..bt i not soo sure..coz mr peh on course..haha..well..wanted to make a quick one..haha..and i managed to!! form 11.12 tooo..i dono wat time..haha..well..if thr's anything special..keep in okay..bbyes!!

2011-03-28T22:58:00.002+08:00

okay..HEYS.. so been long huh..hahas..well..nth much happen last week..well i think alot fo things hapen last week..so here's my story!! well..my previous post was on tues..hmm..so wed..nth much happen..i dont rmb well.. THURs was out STAFF SERGEANT TEST!! haha..not gonna tell you the results yet..wait till later!!hmm..i didnt expect the test to end soo early..wow..okay..well..i think i screw up abit bt still it was kinda fun..being back in a squad doing drills..GOSH I MISSED IT SOO MUCH..I LOVE SAMULAS..i dono y..bt you love something you miss rite..bt tht time i dont like it much..NOW I DO..haha..lol..LAME..okay..we didnt have to write anything so aft the drills we went into the room 1 by 1..and had to recite the mission.vision,pledge and sizing..i forgot to say smth in my sizing wow..tht was a blast huh..overall i thought every 1 did well..aft tht test had to talk to samson abt the SI Interview..I HAVE TO BE SERIOUS AND FIERCE..haha..i m okay..i cn be..bt i dont want to..lol..okay..talktalktalk..went home late.. FRIDAY!! SI Interview..sch was boring..duhh..aft sch straight away prepare for the interview..polish my boots then rush to kovan with YaSi..to buy lip gloss for the ShiMin..like wat the hell like directly ask for birthday present..i think she got no friends..haha..lol..toot..zzz..okay..prepare uni..heard bt speech day..didnt care..abt it..bt hope this yr its fun!!haha..wanna participate!!okay..SI interview..hmm..i tot they ask questions i cnt ans..turn out to be questions i cn totally ans..bt i said errs and had trouble trying to explain my point..they ask me abt the if i have or dont have the pya and cssp badge..then they ask abt the promotion test..ask me wat stream i m in..lol..stated oso cnnt seee..ask abt my post..stated..bt i had to explain.oya..i talk alot abt the promotion test..haha..scary bt okay..lol..zzz..cedar didnt send any Cadets to be SI..sad..bt i hope i get the rank..haha.. found out on same day YaZhen and Daniel BUC 2011..awesome rite..oyea..b4 i came back and whn i came back..i keep scolding the sec 1s..dont ask y..i just had to..its like a feeling la..oso on fri got to knw out results.. All of us Promoted to SSG,Nicholas Promoted to SGT..Zoey..i knw you cn do it!! GO FOR RETEST!! hmm..oyea..sat..played bball..sun..went to cut hair!! haha yay!! oyea..daddy came home from shanghai on sat..the left on wed..haha..well..yea.. my phone spoil..OVERCHARGE..i wanna go find the batt..haha..i think i shd go alrdy..bbyes..

2011-03-22T23:17:00.002+08:00

Heys..so its like the 2nd day of sch and i m alrdy not coping..wow i really cnnt do Vectors..i mean the simple 1 is okay..bt if you asked me to find something tht is not obvious..i cnnt do la..like i think my brain got smaller and now my brain got LESSER information..zzzz..well..sad to say i think i dont understand work bt mr lee..bt mr chia EMATHS I UNDERSTAND..well to me the best maths teacher is MS..eh wait..MDM LATHA..haha..cool rite..

soo guess wat..I HAD TO CALL THE SCHOOL AGAIN..i rch arnd 6.35..i waited for 6.40..arnd 6.40 i called the school..and i think mrs patty gan ans..like they shd REMEMBER TO UNLOCK THE BACK GATE LA..PLS..if they scared got flasher or wat..put a security guard thr or smth..front gate maybe got 2 security guard y not 1 infron 1 behind..just for the morning oni wat..lol..i dono if i wanna write a complain letter..gosh..IT KILLS..

did i say..tht mr asked me if i was ready for the SI interview..haha...well..i dont rmb..so here it is again!! haha..well..he asked me ytd..and i was SLEEPING..arnd 5 plus..AFTERNOON LA..so i said yea..daniel text me oso..guess he also got asked la..so its both of us..i dono wat the area commandant form area 9 will ask bt i am GONNA MISS TRAINING..its like this fri we have to be @ marist by 4..omg..wear wat..do wat..duh..its an interview..i dono..i just hope i pass and maybe get the SI Rank..haha..HOW TO GO THR..i not sure yet..

well..i have don almost all the things tht need the computer..time for bed!!bbyes!!

2011-03-21T23:27:00.003+08:00

heys..ITS THE 1ST DAY OF SCHOOL!!

so was it awesome..i dono..bt i wasnt tht sleepy until maths..haha..its the aftnn..duh..well..aft sch had AMaths remedial..sort of la..all i knw..is tht i didnt do any holiday homework..yea..haha..okay..well..aft met with the sec 1s..talk abt the shimin thing and yea..i made it clear to myself tht i shd like be over protective of liking mingchuan rite..like he's is not my boyfriend or anything so i gues..i allow her to like him..like whn she told me i dont feel anything like jealousy or what whn he was with xinyun even though they werent tgt..HAHA..lol..okay..so i have concluded today tht i DO NOT HAVE FEELINGS for mingchuan..i m very proud of myself..haha..YAY!! thn you will ask..who i like now..well..tht i dono..i dont have feelings for any1..oyea..thrs another thing i wanna say..

if you think i m gay(lesbian)..pls dont draw up any conclusions yet..just coz i hold a girl's hand and walk arnd doesnt mean i m gay okay..pls get tht right..thankyouverymuch..

oyea..errr..mr peh asked me if i was ready for SI interview..hello..i was sleeping and luckly i managed to type..yea..haha..save me..thn..i think he also asked dan..i dono la..well..its pass 1130..gotta get to slp yea..haha..bbyes..

2011-03-18T22:41:00.002+08:00

Heys..so tdy went to sch for SS..yea..wiwi followed along..zzz..mdm ros son was also thr..haha..noisy..bt still cute..ahhhhahahaha..okay..so tdy i didnt study..regret..soo shuttup..yea..err..wat else..hmm..went home..used com..etc..nothing much happen today..zzz..like usual slacking day..

i realise i have been slacking for A VERY LONG TIME..its time to STUDY..REVISE..bt i dono whr to start..i knw i m GONNA USE most of my time studying CHEM..so i think i m gonna buy the chem guide book..and dont even go to AMATHS..i dono wat else to do la..i think i just self study lor..like shit alrdy..wat else you want me to do..restart all over..and yes..i m gonna prove to others i tcn do well for my O levels..haha..

GONNA EAT PIZZA!! yea!!okay..haven come yet..wanted to put photos bt i dono wat photo to put..so LOL LA..hahaha..bbyes

2011-03-17T21:37:00.002+08:00

heys..hmm..i m currently doing D&T now..wnated to read Chem bt then..No Mood hahaha..well..okays..hmm..i m gonna wirte smth nice or bad for my exs..haha..okay..so YES..i m bored..well..maybe for my friends too..HAHA..bt b4 tht let me tel you abt today..today waaasss..sooo OKAY la..woke up went to room to charge phone..my alarms woke me bt i turn it off..haha..shimin..called me..still sleepy voice..she called me 3 time sia..wat the hell..okay..aft the 3rd call she realise i was still sleeping..haha..okay..zzz..anrd 9 or soo..woke up..prepared for the day..wiwi wanted to follow so..waited for her..had my breakfast..aft went to sch..waa..irritating sia..haha..had fun la..trained..seems like..the team really not ready to go..not prepared..bt nvm..soo guess wat..wiwi is like going to sch with me tmr again..like..zzz..okay..so wth la..okay..hmm..today..the shimin thing is still not settled..Y..dont ask..she is like stressing me out man..okay..so nvm..well..its like time to talk abt it then haha..

well..my 1st ever ex..
Muhammad Alfi Bin Abdullah..
you are my pri sch friend..i dont even knw y i agreed..i dont even rmb how long we stead..and i dont even rmb breaking up with you..so wat the hell yea..you have been soo sweet talking to me through text..bt yea..whn i found out you went to peihwa..my kakak nye sekolah..i tot..OMG..i didnt feel anything..bt hey..thr was like excitement over you..i dont knw if i like you..bt yea..i kinda miss your texts whn we were p6..I STILL MISS YOU..hope to be good friends with you again..you will always be my 1st:)YA..and i knw you in relationship now..soo LAST LONG!! haha..gd luck for NCDCC!!

2nd.
Chew Ming Chuan Gareth..
heys..soo..i see you like almost everyday..yea..wat..waa..you are soo hard..bt i knw i got alot of things to say to you like..well..i feel guilty for liking you even though i knw you and xinyun were like..tgt..on and off..i m really sorry..bt whn you asked me on march 26 2009..yes i stil rmb arnd 8..i was like using the com or doing my uni i dont rmb..i was like sooo freaking excited la..you were like lets say..the 1st guy i really like..or crushed at..bt i dono y la..everytime aft i break up or wat i always fell back to you..you..like MAN U!! YEA!! MANCHESTER UNITED ALL THE WAY!! you live in sk..and you are always nice..i like the way to talk abt things which at time made me agree..not coz i like you..bt coz i think its correct..i like the way whn you're hair was wet whn we were at STC..i m sry if i was heavy..sitting on your lap..really sorry abt tht..it seems like we were close then bt not now rite..now all we talk abt is NPNPNPNP..we used to talk abt other things..bt i m stil curious..the other day..you saw a photo of me and ryan in my psp..you were like smiling then you seem to frown..well maybe coz i think if you smile for no reason people think you are weird..haha..sry..bt tht time..i was confused..i dono..i kinda had feelings for you and ryan..yea i knw..kinda bitchy or etc..bt the day you broke up..with me i kinda tot it was my fault..bt i slowy leant to accept tht you still had feelings for xinyun..well..we oni had less then 25 hours rite..how pathetic..bt i m stil curious..y r you always close to me aft awhile..like thr was a time whn we didnt even talk..not even abt np..well coz thrs nothing to talk abt rite..bt i knw we exchged hi's and bye's bt still..whn you became close to me..i feel weird..i dono if i stil want you ernt..bt i feel like i still do..bt i dont wan you to not to talk to me..bcoz of this..so..i hope tht you wil always be happy..WORK HARD FOR O's..

3rd.
Jeremy Twang..
okay..i m sooo sry..i dono y i even agreed to you..i dont even have feeling for you la..pls..okay..erm..you're really tall.and sweet at time..you dont get mad at me even though i gave you..i m soo tired look..i m sry for the break up reason..yea..tht time i confused bt i knw i dont even like you..so i used hanafi(my bro) as an excuse la..i m really really sorry..bt i like they way you treated me..bt the actuall reason y i broke up with you is coz you PLAY JUBEAT TOOO MUCH..really cut down..i would have been with you longer bt becoz of jubeat..i broke up..i m really sorry..you tall guy..you're the oni 1 i m still talking to..at facebook..like as friends..other than mingchuan..you were like a bad boy during pri sch..bt i still think tht you're my bad boy..i miss you man..pri sch class outing soo kays..:)

4th..
Ryan Hidayat Sulaiman..
i m sooo piss with you..bt i still like you yes..bt i m having a feeling tht you like some 1 else..and hello..how cn you not allow me to comment on your status on fb..bt i acually dont mind..you have been like the sweetest guy i have ever met..i dont think you shd use study as an excuse la..pls..okay..i shall not be angry at this..bt as your 1st gf..i dono..i feel like..its like planned thing..15 days?? i dono..rmb the day we went out aft sch..yea..okay..i owe you $5..for the meal..i shall pay you back..oyea..and your PEN..it still with me..i feel like breaking it alrdy..pls..i dont even stalk you or wat sia..i oni comment..TAKE CARE..REST WELL..on the comments which you said..your werent feeling well..shit you man..i still have feelings okay..and this suppose to be a good thing..bt i dono y yours is like soo NEGATIVE..well time for something nice..haha.chill..whn you left i rched home..i felt as though something in me broke..like really broke..well wat does tht mean..yea..i reallt had feeling for you okay..so love me back..you idiot..okay..i dono y..bt i really don understand..see ya soon okay!!..EUNOS BOY!!

okay..so tht all rite..hmm..anything else oyea..

I CAN CONFIRM I HAVE NO FEELINGS FOR ANY1 RITE NOW..
CONFIRM..SO i dont care..WHO LIKES MING CHUAN OR RYAN..OR ALFI OR JEREMY..okay..bbyes..

2011-03-16T18:58:00.003+08:00

Woa!! Miss out much huh..been like sooo long..gosh..posting alot of shit..SORRY IF I HAVEN BEEN POSTING..been LAZY..well..let me tell you..my life have been up and down..DNT is doing great..hmm..wat else..oyea..outings were fun..mass camp meeting..hmm..lets say..i think i cn reveal loads of shit here rite..oyea..15 march..EXCAPE WAS DAMN FUN..too afraid to try anything at 1st..bt then..aft i took a ride on the go-cart thing..saw mingchuan..dono y..bt been keeping an eye out for him..for awhile..yes..i do feel something for him..i dono..well..i knw someone else have a feel on him..ShiMin..well..my so called sister..zz..i reveal..wow..nvm la..
AT LEAST I GOT A REASON TO STOP LOVING HIM..hmm wat else to say..oyea..sec 1s got new CADET..i dont really knw him tht well but people say he's annoying..so..i dono the sec 1 really n make me frustrated..oyea..and shimin is from the sec 1 squad oso..haha..well..its just a crush rite..

i dont understand y people always fall back on their 1st love..well not always..MOST OF THE TIME..it like happened to me twice..aft i broke up with jeremy..i tot well..hanafi like me..bt no..i have to treat him like my abang rite..so i didnt fall for any1..bt the problem is..EVERYTIME stop liking some1..HE COMES BACK TO MAKE ME LIKE HIM..i feell soooo hot..whenver he is around..grr..monday holiday meeting..we alone in the room..dono y i feel so excited..grrr..PLEASE SLAP ME NOW..gosh..well..i really shd not do this..shd i ask permission frm RYAN..i m like supposed to wait for him..till end of o'levels..bt i dono if i could wait tht long..we sort of like drifted apart..well..he BLOCKED ME FROM COMMENTING his status..lol..i dont even comment on all his status like a stalker does..i oni comment on his status tht states he doesnt feel well..and all i say is TAKE CARE..REST WELL..LOL..like mother fucker rite..

bzzzzzzzz..i feel like chopping my HEAD OFF LLAAAAA..ARGGGGHHH..okok..omg..i need to check on smth..

okay..i just checked..YEA!! they are not in the same group!okok..SO I M SOOOO CHILLED!! HAHAHAHA..OMG..wat m i to do..okay..so its now oni between me.you and tracy..be me and tracy knw the whole thing la..HAHAHAHA..LOL..SUCKS FOR YOU!!
oyea..i watched..RED RIDING HOOD ALRDY!!! WHOO got HOT GUYS SIA..PETER!! whoo..y all the guys named PETER ALL HOT sia..HAHAHAHAH..OKAY..my RUPERT GRINT HOTTEST!! if you dare touch him..YOUR HAND WILL BURN..except for EMMA WATSON..hahah..WE SHARE OKAY..lol..hmm..we are gonna make the MABEF tee alrdy!! YEA!! okok..i think i shall end here..WHOO..bbyes..

2011-03-11T21:39:00.002+08:00

Heys..i guess this is gonna be soooooo..FREAKING long..YO!!its been along time sia..wait..OMG..my younger SIS is a PREFECT??? Wth..okay..nvmm..so whole week my mood up and down..bt now holidays..so its like still 6 working days for me la..haha..

2011-02-27T14:43:00.003+08:00

heys..

guess wat..finally!!

i m able to post the Hainan Parade and CCA Experience 201 video..okay..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8G2MQhcoPuk

click on the link above and you cn see the vid..hahaha..lol..

well now let me talk some other stuff yea..hmm..so yts had Flag Day..kinda not tht fun la..Flagged with Sheryl and PeiYi..so yea..i suck really..too negative..well..gotta chg tht..hmm wat else..i dont think thr's much la..coz i really dono wat else to talk abt..well..click on the link and watch the vid..:)bbyes..

2011-02-24T23:06:00.003+08:00

heys..so while wating for 13 mins for my pics to be copied into my pendrive..let me post smth 1st la..hmm..sch was okay..totally sleepy man..got thr HRC Photos and went to the StJohn Island..cool sia..the fish are like soo big and all..sad..cnnt take photo la..coz its like a secret area..lalala..hmm i think i cn show you some HRC photos of me..haha..of course me and other people oso la..thn..we went to HRC on the 12 of feb..oyea..tmr is Yazhen and Yasi birthday..along have pass me yazhen gift yet..lol..haha..bt hey..shd be fun..wow i now typing this..i cn feel the the boat shake or maybe its my body shaking..haha..oo..10 mins left..wat else to write..well nth much tmr got geog test..i m studying..bt not like a mad cow..or a scientist la..just studying..haha..well i think i shd also post photos on the np blog oso la..seem soo uninteresting..haha..bbyes..

2011-02-23T22:49:00.002+08:00

heys..waa..long time alrdy sia..haha..well..been busy..cnt use com..even if i m able to use com..i got not enough time to blog..sad life sia..these days..really ah..i have been disappointng alot of people..SLEEP IN CLASS..FAILING TEST..well abt test..we just finished common test..and guess wat..I DIDNT DO CHEM PROPERLY..coz i nvr study for it coz i dont understand a thing la..BUT..i did the MCQ,and 1 qn of part B i think..bt I GOT DO PHY..so i think shd be okay la..oya..i pass my emaths common test..waa..i can get 21 or 22 if i didnt do careless mistake la sey..i got 19/25..good or not..oyea and for eng i got 12/20 or 25 la i dono..to me its not a pass la..bt yea..its good oni..zzz..the most sad thing..i didnt complete my mt letter..WTF..and yea..gonna have P2 this fri..this fri oso got geog test..SURE DIE..oyea..this fri is YaZhen and YaSi bday..i think they know we buy stuff for them..they all keep discussing abt the thing to me infront of them..sure SUSPECT..bt nvm..who cares yea..haha..well kind sleepy..i think i go slp..bbyes..

2011-02-13T15:58:00.002+08:00

heys..ytd was HRC..it was HORRIBLE!! loads of SHIT happen..screamed alot hahaha..well alot of things have been happening inthe unit and during the week la..hmm..i really like dono wat to say..hmm..boring sia..well..whn i get the photos thn i show you okay..bbyes

2011-02-05T22:38:00.002+08:00

Heys..

long time huh..well..currently watching tv..wow..yeap..the com is in the living room..haha..well wat did i do for the week..loads of stuff..had sch on mon and tues..tues went home late..MEETING..lol..woakay....errm..wed had fun..dont ask y..coz i really dono..super hyper..at home..slp and eat..slack..blabla..thurs..went out..dont rmb whr..haha..okay..ytd..went out oso..bt finish my homework alrdy..yep..so yea..loads of stuff happen ytd..so yea..shd be fun huh..tdy didnt go out so stayed home..did dnt..MOMMY cooked food..tasted nice..the fish kinda salt,,oyea..tmr going to sheryl's house..so..i guess..this week is all fun yea..hmm..mummy wanna use the com..bbyes..

2011-01-30T22:33:00.002+08:00

heys..so how are you guys..fine??i guess..been angry for almost the whole day..let me tell you y..daddy thinks i m too COMMITTED TO NPCC..like..LOL..ask him to sign a learning journey form oso say its related to np..wtf..i just said tht we are going to STJOHN ISLAND..He thinks soo much..so i have therefore decided..

TO ATTEND NPCC bt not DO ANYTHING..well tht would be hard..considering my position..bt hey..MABEF..no matter wat position we hold every1 is the same..so with or without me..you guys cn still work as a machine rite..so yea..watever la..life is soo fucking difficult for me this yr..keep getting scolded..wow..HE SAID HE DIDNT CARE ABT ACADEMIC RESULTS..HE SAID HE ONI CARED FOR RELIGIOUS RESULTS..so..wat is he showing?? LIES??wow thts how your children learn la..to cheat and lie to ppl..yes..I HAVE TO ADMIT I DO LIE..which bloody IDIOT DONT..even the super nice ppl lie..just to keep a secret oror not to hurt any moron's feelings rite..

so how to explain..YES..I M ANGRY..DUE TO THIS BLOODY ANGER I HAVE TORN THE MABEF SHIRT DESIGN....and I BLOODY REGRET IT..y..I HAVE NOT REGRET ALMOST EVERYTHING..decisions i make are final..and thts it..so wat i m doing..I DONT REALLY KNW..
and you bloody asses who think i tht i will go for the dumb CIBTC..or watever you call it..let me tell you still long way..Y TALK ABT IT NOW..Y KEEP POINTING FINGER TO ME WHN THE CIs ask WHO GOING FOR THE COURSE?? YYYYY..you think i soo PRO AH..FUCK OFF LA..GUESS WAT..ITS MY DECISION NOT YOURS...so let me say..i m really not i n good mood..i don knw y i m posting..maybe because this is whr i let out all my feelings..so yea..ppl shd really..wow..bbyes..

2011-01-28T21:23:00.002+08:00

Heys!! so trging how??WAA..SOOOO MANY PPL NVR GO..thn i dono y la..CAMPCRAFT SUDDENLY VERY ANGRY..maybe i knw y la..bt maybe i m not gonna say it out..so yea..we started using our squad name alrdy..MABEF..haha..cool rite..wat it means..
Marvelous And Best Exciting Friends..suitable..hmm..haha..don y la..dont ask..waa..sec 3 squad name is NEON..LOL..okay la..zz..neon..hoho..cool..left with the sec 2..well wat else m i to say..oya..TODAY RIDWAN CAME BACK..OMG..missed him soo much man..he was like my senior or nco..haha..NS alrdy la..haha..well got history la..haha..hmm..so tdy okay la..talked..and got angry..cooled down..blablabla..so tmr planning to play bbal with my old team..i knw loads of ppl wont come..so calling the juniors..waa..i hope my leg dont break down sia..haha..well..bbyes..

2011-01-27T22:30:00.003+08:00

Hey YO Suckers!!

how are you guys MANN..so here i m typing this out..lala..suppose to be doing phy..no wait..studying phy..bt yet..I M HERE..yala..TIME OFF..zzz..hmm..loads has happen since..haha..went to sci center agn..bt this time with class..went to jurong island..had arguement with daddy..having loads of stress..I FEEL LIKE QUITTING NPCC NOW!!..i feel like quiting everything..grr..HAHA..well..tmr got trg..wonder is any1 reads this thing anymore..hmm..well..got to continue it rite..whn i m old..PEOPLE may use this..as a something or something..so i become legend..blablabla..haha..hmm..well i got nth to say..bbyes.

2011-01-15T08:41:00.003+08:00

Hey!! GUESS WAT!!...

ITS THE WEEKENDS!! yea!!

so,happy?? nt really sure..i got alot of things in mind..this week of sch..we were bombed with loads of hw..and yup you guess it..HOLIDAY HW..NT DONE AND WILL NOT BE DONE!! nothing interesting this week..the mass camp proposal being shit..bt yea..its okay..trg ytd..was..really..WOW..tonnes of chges coz the CIs..wanted to end by 545..lol..shd have said earlier..debrief was said to be scolding..bt yet..we had like some sort of meeting like tht..lol.alot of events are coming up..have to plan this and tht..oya..ytd DP..was a disaster..grrr..alot of ppl got promoted..bt its like..all the sec 1s are to be promoted..bt y not all..i dono..ask hta..yet..i think THE PROMOTIN WILL HELP THOSE THT ALMOST DON FEEL LIKE COMING..come for more trg..yea...zzz.bt hey..i m gonna go beach rd tdy to buy stuff..shd be fun rite..well..gonna do my hw soon..yup as you guess it..loads of em..whn to start..aft i come back frm beach rd..well better go..bbyes.

2011-01-09T15:50:00.002+08:00

heys..so MISS ME??haha..well..found out i could use the com on weekends..oni..lol..hmm..so 1st week of sch was brilliant..started studying..alrdy..got alotof np things..thinking abt whr i wanna go aft sec sch..POLY OR JC..i dono..well..so sch kinda normal..not much la..yts went to see parade..didnt see putri..bt saw amalina and asilah and rafidah..and some other ndp and oev friends..took vid the whole parade..so yea..

i m a kind of person who get irritated easily..i cn scold bt whn i scold ppl..i scold really harsh..i cn really make tht person feel bad or make me hate me..so zzz..how..oya..taking sec 1s with mingchuan..y??i dono..CIs decision..okay la..so need to study alot..well..i got nth else to say la..bbyes..

2011-01-03T22:10:00.003+08:00

HELLO!!

hahas..well sch is starting tomorrow..I M TAKING O LEVELS THIS YEAR..wow..time flies really fast..well..this yr..gonna study..like tmr..1st day of sch..STUDY LA..if got no hw..READ BOOK la..if nt..go see the amaths stuff..haha..oso..alot of ppl say..i too close to np..so..this yr..i try get myself involve whn ppl call me la..other thn tht GOTTA STUDY..wow..mann..this seriously are like words..we just have to wait for the action..oya..daddy gonna take the com away..lol..like..to me..its good and bad..WHY?? good..coz..i cn concentrate more..bad..cnnt use and do other stuff..lol..bt see 1st la..haha..well..1st day of sch..wat to feel..NORMAL??haha..like..i dont understand y every1 including the sec 2 and 3s are soo scared of hw..like hello..do you even have hw..haven even learn anything..got hw alrdy..thts like crap..LOL..for us sec 4s.i understand la..got hw..coz u sec 4..u wan learn wat new thing sia..just revision..lol..zzz..okok..so..I DIDNT DO ANY HW..so wat..nt even amaths..wow..hope prof snape dont kill me sia..wat the hell..argghh..this year..need to reduce amount of crazyness..wow..hmm..got nth else to say la..so..hope tht i get to use the com tmr..haha..well..sch is sch la..sch starting tmr..I GOT NO SCH SHOE..How??well..tmr then settle la..bbyes..

2011-01-01T21:39:00.003+08:00

HEYS!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

okays..1st..i wanna apologise for not updating for very long la..haha..

I M SORRY..REALLY SORRY..okok..

so i last left was on my bday rite..well..my bday went well la..woke up in the morning..went to sch..haha..GOT PRESENTS..HAHA..Photos above..HAHA..YAY!! the card was given by yazhen..she also gave me 2..TWO..TOBLERONE CHOC BAR!! sooo AWSOME..okay la..i admit..i just took the photo now..thts y i dont have pic of the choc..HAHA..yea..so kayaking course..MARVELLOURS!!I PASSED!! and..GOT CAPSIZED BY MELVIN..booo..bt HEY!! IT WAS GREAT!! and my NEW PHONE!! SOO..AWESOME!! HAHA..well..

take note i chged my no..pls..msg my old no to get my new 1..coz i might use my old no..AT DESPERATE TIMES..oni..oya..erm..aft tht..nth really special happen..ooooo..oooo..gotgot...

I WENT FOR THE SKPS BASKETBALL CHALET!! AWESOME!! LONG TIME NVR GO..HAHA..consider 1st time..I STAY OVERNIGHT..omg..knw y all these words are in CAPS..coz..i write this..i oso get EXCITED!! WHOOO!!okok..bball chalet was on the 23rd..got sec 1 regist..didnt go..for sch np..coz had to help my dad deal with my bro sec 1 regist..so aft tht..met amelia at my place and went thr..ALOHA LOYANG..haha..was having fun at the beach with the whole team..haha..yea..we were the oldest SENIOR PLAYERS..the juniors who are still in pri sch oso have la..grrr..MISS IT..DARN..saw..daniel and hanyuan..lol..wat they doing thr..i dono..yea..aft tht like nth special..oya..

along and mummy went to KOREA!! the day they came back i began to feel sick..lol..till ytd..bt now i okay la..lol..HAHAHA..well..its the NEW YEAR!! my cousin frm my dad side got married tdy..COOL!! oya..saw a np sir..his name is MOHD ZAKI..lol..he is the 1 i saw in the bus la..lol..zzz..RELATED..i think he is the bride brother la..lol..haha..well..really enjoying..hmm..

about my vidoe blog..thinking abt it..bt i dono la..haha..whn i nt lazy then i do la..okay..haha..SCH IS GONNA START..SOOO..COOL..GET TO SEE EVERY1!!!!

oya..I FINISH DOING THE VIDEO ABT THE suicide window or swtichside window i dono..wanted to upload on youtube..bt..cnnt..the music is COPYRIGHT..lol..wanted to upload here..bt the file is 115 MB..blogger accept 100 MB oni..lol..so..you wann see it..though i think i oni see it coz of the music..find me..okay..haha..well..

oya..1st day of sch got meeting WTH..lol..okay..haha..bbyes..

ENJOY YOUR LAST DAYS OF HOLIDAYS..SEE YA IN SCH ON THE 4TH

2010-12-17T23:43:00.002+08:00

HEYS!! its gonna turn 12 soon..haha..my birthday!! YAY!! now..at this time now..mummy and daddy are probably waiting for mummy's water to break..haha.YAY!! so hell..tdy i spent my day watching oth..haha..boring huh..bt atleast i manage to cover 9 eps baby!! YEA!! haha..oya..still nt studying..bt hey..i got my presents eve b4 the 18..haha..got $20 frm mak and abah..haha..and..guess wat!! I GOT X10 FROM MUMMY AND DADDY!! yea!! I M SOOO HAPPY!! let me tell you how i got it..daddy was eating..then he told me to take a bath..so i did..whn i came out..THEY SAID--'SURPRIZE!!' so i screamed..they screamed..i screamed..then said..i go chg 1st..thn..wat i didnt realise was..tht the present was just outside the toilet door..soo..I SCREAMED AGAIN..haha..went back to chg and checked it out..cool man!! WOW!! wat a day..haha..photo on the top..hah..bbyes..oya..tmr got kayaking..zzz..bbyes.

2010-12-16T21:13:00.003+08:00

heys..life's kinda boring you knw..its like..unexplainable..haha..well..tdy..woke up really late..yea..1st thing i did was eat..duhh..i was damn hungry..now all i could think of is FOOD..why??i think..its bcoz of PUBERTY..lol..yea.haha..need loads of energy..so yea..FOOD=HUMAN ENERGY..haha.spent my time watching one tree hill..duhh..i completed SEASON 3..YAY!! oya..i got new series to watch..well 2 more actually..bt hey..guess wat??i have start studyin yet!!yea..screw life..

i dono y..bt lately..been having breathing difficulties..if you knw anything tht cn help me stop this..pls do give me a call or meet me..or smth..just as long as i knw ho to stop this shit..well..gonna continue watching bbyes..

2010-12-15T20:59:00.002+08:00

heys..so tdy was kinda BORING..zzz..hmm..woke up late..watched tv..used the com..oya..watched one tree hill..haha..well now i m kinda waiting fo my cue..along gonna let me watch wgm..well..its a maybe..so yea..i dono..haha..yea..she just said.later..hmm..kinda HUNGRY..grrr..its damn boring..so..bbyes..haha..i got nth else to say la.bbyes..

2010-12-14T23:49:00.002+08:00

heys..so lets say..tdy..was really..STRESSING..argghh..woke up arnd 12 plus..coz ofa phone call or smth like tht..showered..blabla..decided to combing the vids..HAHA..YOU DONO WAT VIDS RITE..haha..MUX SEE..download songs..went cp..blabla..haha..i kinda gave up on the vid tdy..coz..its like..i save as photo in my thumbdrive..then i tot cn delete..zz..GAVE UP..WOW..HAHA..ended up watching NO ORDINARY FAMILY..haha..at com la..lol..zzz..watched wgm..the end of the ep..reminded me of saying goodbye to ryan..tht day..gosh..it like..HURTS SO BADLY..still feeling it now..
i realise smth..whn i say gdbye to ryan..its like..my heart kena shot..or smth like tht..like..i don wann him to leave..bt..whn i say gdbye to mingchuan..like..no feeling..yet feel like..i wan to talk to him more..how??i dono..

so..

my..

decision..

is..

I HAVE CHOSEN..

NOT..

TO

LIKE BOTH OF THEM..

and refresh..my heart..just like..whn it was..during primary school..whr..i didnt even had a thought of liking any1..

YAY!!

haha..well..currently having like difficulty breathing..how??dono..haha..bbyes..

2010-12-13T23:28:00.002+08:00

heys..waa..long tim nvr post sia..haha..well..tdy is the 13 of dec..AND..I HAVE NOT TOUCH ANY BOOKS YET..LOL..haha..so tdy..woke up..so some stuff..self trg..then went to hta.yea..met putri 1st..haha..was almost late..haha..enjoyed myself really..had loads of fun..talked..discuss..and blabla..haha..played bball..at hta..knee hurts and my wrist is starting to hurt too..lol..been chosen to do the write up..well..if you wanna see the write up..go to the yyss np blog..haha..read..lol..its FREAKING LONG..haha.arnd 8 para..haha..well just watched 2 e of wgm..gonna watch more..yea..so..bbyes..

2010-12-10T21:29:00.001+08:00

heys..MISS ME??haha..yea..dono y..been lazy..be hey..nt really gonna post..be yea..shd be posting..soon..haha..bbyes..

2010-12-10T21:29:00.000+08:00

heys..MISS ME??haha..yea..dono y..been lazy..be hey..nt really gonna post..be yea..shd be posting..soon..haha..bbyes..

2010-12-06T21:24:00.000+08:00

WOW!!
heys..grrr..no mood do anything now..haha..BORED!! LALALALA..tmr sec 3 outing..GRRR..no money sia..how..damn..nvm..bored..SHALL..TV!! oya..my phone no money..bbyes.

2010-12-02T23:01:00.002+08:00

heys..today..2nd day of 1st aid..damn funny..bt disappointing la..gt scolded coz we mad fun of the cpr sequence..and were too noisy..learnt our lesson..talk whn he in good mood..shut up whn we scold them la..haha..so yea..same thing just tht we got practical..wow..didnt knw CPR could be tht hard sia..bt hell..aft the course..went home..use com then follow along go to IMM..she o see 2AM..lol..I WASTED ALMST $10 BUYING FOOD JUST TO WAIT FOR HER SIA..omg..how..GROW FAT AH..zzzz..sucks sia..just got home..dono if i got shoes for tmr ernt sia..my WHITE SHOES ALMOST GOT SOAKED..zzz..NOW I M ANGRY AT NICKKI..TALK ALOT OF THINGS SIA..same as alot of ppl..BT HE EVEN WORSE LA..I REALLY DONO Y I TREAT HIM AS MY BRO SIA..DISBAND HIM AS BRO BETTER RITE..this is damn shit..IS LIKE ONI MY BLOOD SIBLINGS I EASILY GET ANGRY AT SIA..HE NT EVEN BLOOD RELATED..A FEW SECS WITH HIM CN ALRDY GET ANGRY..WTF..

waa..dont talk abt my anger..tmr i really give out volcano..all sure dont wan talk to me sia..

i go update np blog la..bbye..

2010-12-02T00:38:00.002+08:00

heys..Today was te 1st day of the 1st aid course..lets say tht is was,funny,sacrastic,boring..haha..learn loads especially..DO NOT ASSUME!!haha..yea..we had lunch at the golden mile food centre...lol..the basement food is full with malay stalls the level 1 s chinese.the 3rd floor is the army market..bt i guess tmr i got no money buy food..zzz..sad..bought all my book for next yr..I DONT EVE KNW IF I NEED THEM LA LOL..bt tdy..i sense smth la..and yet..i m nt sure of it..

went home with the sec 3s la..took circle line.then took the purple 1..they were all smiling la..mingchuan oso..especially him..then,he saw my pic with ryan at my psp..lol..DONT ASSUME..then he frowned..i feel very bad la..now..i go home..feeling sad..and my heart is confuse..

WHO DO I HAVE FEELING FOR ACTUALLY..

RYAN

OR

MINGCHUAN??

arggghh..screw this..bbyes..

2010-11-30T20:25:00.002+08:00

heys..today had meeting la..talked..gave out the souverniers..haha..then went to prata shop for lunch..haha..then went back to pack my stuff..then went to madrsah..waa..sial ah..i tot i late sey..so i ran..lol..end up nt my turn..zzz..still the 1st person..grr..lol..i shd have walked sey..zzz..then went to hougang mall(HM)..zzz..i tot got many ppl go sey..end up oni me yl and cy..met them..then went to kopitiam to eat..1st talked abt my trip to hk..then talked abt the ghost at macau..then talked abt the aussie trip they go..then trailed to the meeting tdy..then talked abt th mass camp..then night walk..then ghost stories..haha..lol..waa..went home drenched..even whn i ran..still got drenched..lucky the com didnt get wet..oya..yl got her souvernier..haha..CANNOT FIND MY NAIL CLIPPER..wow..okay..totally random..

TRUTHFULLY..I WANA SAY..

I MISS PPL SINGING TO ME "NO ONE"
though it kinda irritates me bt YEA..guess not gonna hear it sometime yea..haha..

YES..I MISS..PUTRI,SITI,AISHAH..AND THE OTHER OEV PPL..grrr..hahhaha..

oya told ryan tht i got him smth..haha..asked him whn he wants it..HE DIDNT REPLY..BT HELL..

19 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRHTDAY!!
YEA!!

well having my kayaking course on tht day..so yea..haha..well..bbyes..

2010-11-29T21:43:00.003+08:00

HELLO!! so long sia..haha..I M BACK!! miss me??guess not..haha..well..told ya..went to hongkong.HAD LOADS OF FUN..MET LOADS OF PPL..bt still its best to be home rite..haha..yea..okay..so expecting me to have loads of pics rite..GUESS WAT?? i oni TOOK PHOTOS FOR THE 1ST 2 DAYS ONI..hahahahahahahaha..funny rite..HAHAHAHA..yea..aft the 3rd day..realised tht the cam was dragging me and tht ppl cn always tag me in the photos at fb..so yea..haha..SMART RITE..SMART RITE..haha.the food thr..WAA..ATE LOADS OF VEGGIES..and i DONT EAT VEGGIES..soo..PUKE..lol..no la..i didnt puke..i swallowed the veggies..TADA!!hahaha..okay..got loads of stories..bt dont think thr will b time..no actually thr is ALOT OF TIME..bt..i DONT FEEL LIKE TELLING YOU WAT HAPPEN..let the pics speak..GO FB AND SEE..HAHAHA..lol..nt many ppl upload the pics yet or even tag me la..grr..haha..shall wait..haha..well..tdy..woke u arnd 1plus..coz slpt nearly 2..then went for the exam..i think i m gonna fail tht..then use com at home then..at night went to rivervale plaza..ate mac then went home..haha..use fb..blabla..okay
kinda mad or angry..coz i m away and they all didnt update the np blog so tht those going..knws more info..or..if they forget cn refer..lol..i cnnt be the oni 1 updating..like..mux tell you guys to hel m update whn i m away.you guys like knw i m away..bt still nvr update..well..tmr got meeting..aft meeting going for th exam..haha..shall go bbyes..

2010-11-22T10:51:00.002+08:00

heys..still home..haha..yea..OMG..the flight is tdy..lol..plan to go to the airport arnd 12..zzz..scared sia..going to the airport myself..i think..i dono..kinda confuse sia..grr..haha..oya..I M GONNA TAKE SINGAPORE AIRLINE FOR i think the 1st time YO!! haha..the NO1 AIRLINE IN THE WORLD..haha..zzz..i wonder if the food is nice..haha..yea..I FINALLY GET TO EAT KFC the WAFFLES..its not tht bad..haha..yea..i dono why i feel lik not going..coz thr's alot of thing tht i m leaving here..bt all the np things i pass all the info i have to yazhen..so i think its okay..hah..tdy i no need take my religious test or exam..haha..win!!

haha..MY LUGGAGE BIG..bt not huge..my uni cover cn fit sia..cool rite.. wonders if any1 send me..coz..obviously i dont wanna carry my luggage and take bus rite..so weird sia..haha..yea..my last post b4 i go..lol..big deal..zzz..shall buy suff for all..IF GOT TIME..if not then SORRY..haha..well bbyes..SHALL RETURN WITH JUNK LOADS OF PHOTOS..BYEBYE!!

2010-11-19T23:42:00.002+08:00

heys..woke up kinda late or early..coz the room was too cold..with no aircon.just the fan..wow..yea..had a boring day..used com..read the 3rd book i borrowed frm the lib..read them all..so yea..now got nth to do..i guess..haha..almost wanted to go to slp whn along reminded me abt the UKISS concert..lol..forgot abt it..lol..COZ I M NT A FAN..so yea..i went thr..got bored..so i just stand thr..woa..go loads of ppl..yea..bt overall..didnt really enjoy myself..tmr got emergency meeting and gonna collect our shirts..hope it will look nice..nt reallyy sure..well..planning to pack my bag for the hk trip..guess i got almost everything i need except for the thermometer..yea..guess i need to buy it or smth..haha..well.. MY FRIENDS WHO WENT TO SYDNEY ARE COMING BACK TONIGHT..haha.i think they arrive..yay!! they arrive..i go..sad..guess i m gonna have to go the airport ALONE..mummy and daddy got work..mak and abah..nt really sure tht they are gonna come..along got sch..or test..dont think my friends even knw abt this..haha..well..got late..bbyes.

2010-11-18T19:37:00.002+08:00

heys..hmm..tdy wke up arnd 10..haha..had an alarm bt didnt really use it..so aft my 1st alarm..i just shut the whole alarm off..LOL..haha..had to be in sch tdy to replace some ppl for the charity dinner of which i m nt attending..coz i m GOING TO HONGKONG..yea!! haha..shd b fun..putri is going..just hope she doesnt like make me spill tht i dated ryan..grrr..well okay..mr peh came into the room told us it was cancelled..yea..haha..so kinda spent my whole day..reading the book..like..omg..the book is AWESOME..the book i was reading is called..BUSTED..its abt a guy..not popular..flutist(a person who play flute)*not sure of the spelling*..accidentally went to a meeting..had to measure girls breast..then end up screwing his own life..i the end he gets okay with all become popular for being a good boy..dates his bestfriend..haha..well..tdy got ALOT OF TALK ABT MY LOVE LIFE..like always..argued with nickki abt it..lol..he keep talking abt it..so i had to state my stand right..lol..keep talking abt ryan..kinda bothered me..a little..i knw the reason why..its to wait..or move on..i chose to wait..bt i dono.if time allows it..coz..a person's feelings do change..hiaz..screw it..well..i m gonna watch fighting spiders soon..haha..bt.. shall buy myself some chocolates!! HAHA..hmm..keeps me being happy right..well.bbyes..

2010-11-17T22:50:00.003+08:00

heys..today is HARI RAYA HAJI..gosh..really hate this kinda celebrations..coz..gotta wear clothing tht itch me..LOL..alright..so lets say..mummy woke me up early coz she told me to buy bread..zzz..yea..skipskipskip..aft breakfast..went to opa's hse..waa..got NASI BRIYANI..yo!! haha..yea..the FOOD WAS AWESOME LA..haha..aft awhile..i dono y..i kinda got restless..well yea..ppl do rite..i mean..you so get restless whn your clothing irritates you..like damn..so hell..aft tht went to mak hse..yea..got more moody..daddy keep bully me and yea.i cried while eating..bt really..i didnt lik cry loudly..i cried with no sound..HAHA..you kw whn you cry..you kinda feel sleepy aftword..yea..tht how i feel and what i did really..haha..yea..slpy until like 430..then we went home..to chg..haha..HERE IS MY FAV PART OF TODAY!..we chg then WENT TO WATCH HARRY POTTER..yea..bt not in 3D..if you watch in 3d..cnfrm kena shock like hell..haha..i wanna spill beans now..bt nt good idea..haha..alot of ppl will kill me..haha.yea..now home..i think i m gonna sleep soon..oror..maybe go read book..i dono..haha..well..oya..the pics on top is the harry potter popcorn combo mumm bought..cost $11..haha..well not the combo..bt an item tht comes with it..haha..i m having fun with this wand..haha..yea..let me say..you buy the popcorn you get a popcorn don wat size and a dono wat size drink and the wand..ENJOY!!bbyes.

2010-11-16T20:20:00.002+08:00

heys..tdy was kinda short..dont ask why i oso dono..woke up arnd 830..the lie down..rollrollroll..until 845..shower..went to sch for meeting..waa..oni got 34 of us..WAT MEETING SIA..bt we covered alot of its kinda okay..knw whn you plan stuf for very long..then you went through it..yea..we got into tht situation..we forgot wat the thing was for lol.kinda stupid rite..haha..well..aft the meeting..IT POURED..so yea..kinda wet..bt got home SAFE..haha..then stayed home fora while..then went to meet along at tampines..collect her U-KISS ticket..grr..how many tickets??2..she made me go..lol..HOW BORING CN THT BE..ggr..yea..tickets to the concert..or fan signing..i dono..lol..yea..then home..haha..sshhh..i bought POPCORN FRM GV!! whoohooo..and YES.I M GONA WATCH HARRY POTTER TOMORROW..y i spell tmr the actuall spelling..oyea..COZ I M SOOO EXCITED LA..haha..YES!! haha..well..guess wat..amirul is downloading blackshot..WTF IS THT..lol..kinda sucky..O..and YEA!!

our..wait..mux capitalise!!

OUR NCO-TEE IS COMING SOON!!
20 NOV YEA!!
this means..i have to hurry and design the one nickki wanna buy for us..lol..well..amirul gonna use the com soon..hmm..well..better go..bbyes..